Alone (camp camp) *~DISCONTINUED~*

Part 42

Nikki's POV
I could tell that whatever that nurse gave them was bad.
They were sobbing even harder then before, if that was even possible.
I wanted to know what it was, but convinced myself that whatever it was, it was probably for the best that I didn't know.

It was now 4:12am
Just listening to the ticking of the clock made me go insane with each tick.
Each hour contemplating wether this was all my fault.
All of us waiting, waiting, waiting.
Each second killing me over and over again.
It was hard, convincing myself he was okay.
Convincing myself he was going to make it, that he was going to survive this all.
Even though I know deep down that-
"You can see him now."
A call from the left side of the hallway.
I turned my head.
The first movement I've made in awhile.
Another nurse.
It took me awhile for that sentence to set in.
"W-we can what?"
"You all can see him now."
All of our heads shot up this time.
I was... ecstatic.
H-he was, he was alive!
The nurses sweet smile looked back at me.
I got up from my seat, we all did.
I could tell all of us were happy, just by glancing at there faces.
But we didn't say anything.
I needed to see him, this was it.
She led me into the room.
I was the first to enter.
He was asleep, he looked so peaceful.
But, his arms were bandaged, why were his arms bandaged?
They weren't casts.
But I shouldn't be thinking about this right now.
I dragged up a chair from the corner of the room and took a seat next to him.
Both of his legs had casts on, tubes and wires connecting to him.
And for the hundredth time today, I cried.
Everyone did.
I just wanted to stay by his side.
My friend, my best friend, I still couldn't believe he had done this.
The more I thought about it, the more it was clear.
He couldn't have fallen by mistake, it was intentional.
Tears still rolling down my face, recalling the memories.
The memories I loved.
I then felt a tap on my shoulder.
I turned around, it was Gwen.
She was handing me something, some paper.
I grabbed it, wanting to know what it was.
I took one look, I recognized the handwriting immediately.
Goddamn it.
...
(a couple hours later.)
Nikki's POV
I was at home now.
In my bed. Staring at the ceiling.
This wasn't anything new, but this time I felt more... different.
More empty.
I didn't want to leave Max's side, but they made me.
The hospital was way beyond visiting hours, but they let us stay to see him.
But after that we had to leave.
It was about 5:00am now.
Last time I checked.
The note he left...
I hated myself now.
I...I could have stopped this.
I could have prevented this.
How could I not see the signs?
This... This was all my fault.

-539

A/n
Sorry for a really late update, me and my friends wanted to play Minecraft together and we kinda lost track of time.