Me. // Lashton

twenty-one

The kiss tasted like alcohol and chlorine, nothing sweet or innocent about it. Ashton's tongue traced Luke's bottom lip, begging for entrance. Hesitating at first, Luke opened his mouth, letting Ashton's tongue roam his mouth.
A moan escaped Luke's lips when Ashton put a little pressure with his hand on his crotch, making Luke grave more, ache for more.

'Ash', Luke breathed heavily as they parted. Before Luke could start to lecture Ashton about why this wasn't a good idea, he silenced Luke again by kissing the boy's jaw down to his neck.

'Fuck', Luke mumbled, his eyes rolling back and closing, enjoying the moment. Ashton's travelling lips send shivers down Luke's spine and he could hardly hold himself back.

Luke sat with his legs parted on Ashton's lap, rolling his hips repeatedly against Ashton's buldge that was starting to form, making the drummer moan against his skin.

'God Luke', he mumbled, before he started to bite and suck on Luke's pale skin. The taller boy moaned out loud, burying his hands in Ashton's locks. He could feel Ashton grin as the boy stopped sucking on the already dark bruise and licked over it one more time, before he looked up.

'We should.. we should stop.'

'Isn't this what you wanted?'

'Yes, but no.'
Ashton cocked his head to the side, a questioning look on his face, his eyes showing confusion.

'Ash, I want you, yes. But I don't want you just for sex', Luke said and tried to stand up, but Ashton held him in place with his hands on Luke's hips.

'No Lu, please don't go', Ashton mumbled, his hazel eyes big and round as he looked up at Luke.
The guitarist felt himself giving in, which was why he forced himself to get out of Ashton's grip and leave the whirlpool.

'Lu-', Ashton tried to say, but Luke interrupted him.

'No. I.. you have Lucas and you know exactly how I feel. You have been in the same situation!'

'I know.'
Tears welled up in Ashton's eyes as he thought about all the painful moments that his feelings had caused, just because he had fallen for his best friend, band member and colleague.
The days when he felt like drowing in pain, when he saw Luke with Sierra and heard how much they loved each other. Ashton had been sure that Luke would never love him back and now that he did, Ashton didn't feel the same anymore. Or did he?
Was there a possibility for him to still like Luke, even though he was with Lucas?

'Ashton, I'm not pushing you, but this isn't good for anyone. I should probably leave.', Luke said, but his feet didn't move.

Ashton looked at Luke, the boy he had fallen for way too hard and the boy that had hurt him multiple times, the boy that he had hurt multiple times..

'No, wait', Ashton finally spoke up and got out of the whirlpool aswell. He took a few steps forward until he stood right infront of Luke. His hazel eyes met Luke's blue ones and the familiar butterflies came alive, filling his body with a warm feeling of love and comfort, of safety and trust.

Luke was frozen in place, watching Ashton's every move. They stood close enough for their breaths to mix.

'God damn it Ashton, I love you. Why can't you see that?', Luke said, his voice cracking. He looked away with his with tears filled eyes, because he didn't want to cry infront of Ashton again and show him how much of a baby he really was. He hated how emotional he was, but he couldn't help but cry in this frustrating moment.

'I love you too.. god Luke, I'm so stupid', Ashton said and broke down crying.

'What?'
His voice barely above a whisper as he tried to understand what was happening.

'I love you. I fucking love you and I messed up so badly. I lead you on, I'll break Lucas' heart and, and-', Ashton rambled, his sobs cutting him off at the end. His whole body was shaking with heartbreaking sobs, all the bottled up feelings overcoming him at once.

Luke finally moved, kneeling down next to his love and lifting Ashton's head with one hand.

'Do you mean that?'

'Yes', Ashton croaks, tears running over his cheeks and dripping onto Luke's hand.

'Then we have to work this out', Luke said and leaned his forehead against Ashton's.

'I love you Luke.'

'I love you too', he answered and finally allowed their lips to connect to a kiss. They didn't deepen the kiss and the arousal from before was gone, but the love and comfort of the salty kiss was enough. Enough for Luke and enough for Ashton.

Small note at the end which will be deleted soon: I posted an announcement for 'Me' and would be happy if you guys would check it out :)

Also, MYoweN_StorY and I have started to post a Larry AU called 'Newcomer' and if by any chance someone ships Larry, it would be great if you'd check it out ❤