Don't Judge the Love (Youtuber One-Shots)

MunchingUniverse/KKTato (Not In That Way)

Title: Not In That Way

Pairing: Uh, half munchinguniverse and half munchingcomics/kktato. Whatever. It's complicated.

Song: "Not In That Way" by Sam Smith

Genre: Erm, angst

Warnings: Nupe

Word Count: 1,011

And I hate to say I love you

When it's so hard for me

And I hate to say I want you

When you make it so clear...

"Jason, he doesn't love me the way I love him," I say, my frustration growing as I try to explain to my friend the reason I keep my love a secret. "I don't even know if he likes guys."

"Yeah, well, you'll never know if you keep refusing to tell him," Jason points out.

I huff. "No, Jay, you don't understand – he's made it painstakingly obvious that he doesn't

love me that way."

You don't want me.

I'd never ask you, 'cause deep down,

I'm certain, I know what you'd say.

You'd say, 'I'm sorry, believe me,

I love you, but not in that way.'

"Tyler, come on, now. You can't just assume that – you don't have any proof."

"Sure, I have proof!" I protest, crossing my arms and glaring at him. "Haven't you heard the tone in his voice as he reminds me what a good 'friend' I am or tells me he hopes we'll be best 'friends' forever? Friends, Jay. That's all he wants to be."

Tears prick at my eyes. Ah, 'friend,' what a word. A blessing to him and a curse to me.

"Tyler," Jason sighs, resting a hand on my shoulder. "Just try it. Even if he doesn't feel the same, I know he'll accept you."

"I don't want to be accepted," I mutter. "I want to be loved."

And I hate to say I need you

I'm so reliant

I'm so dependent

I'm such a fool

"Tyler, look!" Jason shouts. "You're falling apart without him! The second he leaves the room, that fake smile drops off your face and you very nearly start sobbing. And why? Because you've fully convinced yourself that he'll never love you the way you love himand that you aren't worthy of being loved because of it – but he might, Tyler, because you are!"

When you're not there

I find myself singing the blues

Can't bear

Can't face the truth

"I-I just- I don't want to lose him as a friend, Jason. I can't lose him altogether," I sniffle. "Please don't make me tell him. I don't want to hear the truth, I don't want to hear him tell me the feelings aren't mutual. I don't wanna hear him say it."