Winning Over Slytherin | Draco Malfoy

Chapter 43: Chosen

C H O S E N

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Draco's POV

She doesn't understand.

Of course she doesn't, stupid, if you haven't told her anything.

But I can't.

But you should.

I slammed the door behind me in frustration of the inner conflict I was having with myself. In the beginning of the summer, I had no idea what was coming for me.

I got home from that day I had spent with Kat and my father was waiting for me in my bedroom, I fearfully approached him, knowing I was about to get beaten. That's what surprised me the most. I didn't. Instead, he told me to sit down next to him to have a conversation.

Next thing I knew, I had the dark mark my family bears on my left forearm. The fear I started to feel quickly went away at seeing my father and aunt smile at me. They never smiled at me. He actually said he was proud of me. Proud that only his son was chosen. That made me proud to bear the mark as well. That is, until about a week later when I received the first letter from Kat. She would not be happy, and certainly not proud. I didn't write back. Despite how much every letter I received from her tempted me to do so, I stuffed them in a drawer and refused to open it the whole summer.

A couple weeks after I got my mark, I was informed of my task that would bring the Malfoy family into good graces after how my father had failed him in the events that went down in the Ministry. However, that task made all my pride fade away immediately. I knew I couldn't do it, ever. But as I looked at my father's proud face of his only son being the one chosen for this, I also knew I had to. Ever since I received the news, I felt the fear inside grow much more and expand, starting to take over all of me.

Maybe there was a chance, after all these years maybe there could still be a chance for me to build a relationship with my father. Maybe if I did he would be more accepting of Kat. Who am I kidding? Once Kat finds out, she'll leave me even faster than Potter left that Cho girl last year. Maybe this was a bad idea. I sat on my bed and traced the mark with my finger. I mean, is it worth it to lose the woman I love to make my father proud? Suddenly the door opened and I turned to see Kat, carrying some of her essentials to leave them here. I stood up off my bed and turned away from her, pulling my sleeve back down to ensure she didn't see the mark.

"What the hell Katerina?! Don't you know how to knock?" I heard her inhale sharply and realized my mistake. Yeah, she is about to chew me up and spit me out for talking to her like that.

"That's ironic, seeing as you never do." I was taken aback by her playful teasing. God I've missed you baby. She started walking towards me and I stiffened. She can't see my mark, especially if I plan to not tell her about it.

"What do you need Kat?" I took a step back from her and planted my feet to the ground to not cup her face in my hands when a pained look overtook it.

"Just going to leave my stuff here to take a shower and go to sleep." She started walking towards me again and this time I didn't move. "I've missed sleeping with you, and doing other things that don't include sleep." I couldn't fight my smirk at her words but I finally woke up when she tiptoed to hug me and I pushed her away as gently yet firmly as I could and said the first thing that came to mind.

"I don't think we should be sleeping together anymore." I responded coldly and felt a part of my heart start to tear.

Why the fuck would you say that?

I needed to. She won't walk away unless I make her.

Boy you are stupid.

Maybe. But at least if I go down I won't be dragging her with me.

I tugged at my hair in an attempt to stop my inner dialogue from clashing so much.

"What?" She backed away a little and I tugged harder on my hair to not rush over to her and apologize when I saw her face full of pain. I straightened up to maintain the heartless facade.

"I just mean... we could get caught so easily. And it's unnecessary. Snape's both Slytherin leader and DADA professor this year, meaning he will be on great alert, so we can't risk it. I'll just see you tomorrow for breakfast." I quickly gave her a bullshit response I hoped she would buy, and from the pained look on her face earlier, she would probably buy anything I gave her.

"Draco. Come on..." She tugged on my jacket sleeves and I panicked once again, pushing her away from me so she wouldn't see my mark.

"No. Go to your room Katerina. I'll see you tomorrow." I responded, trying to maintain my voice as monotone as I could.

Great you idiot, now you have to wait a full 9 hours to see her again. After not having seen her for 2 months!

I have a task to complete, to make my family proud.

Such an idiot.

I shook my head in an attempt to clear the two voices inside my head. I looked down at my shoes when I saw even more pain overtake her face at what a jerk I was being.

"Oh. Okay. Bye." Kat once again tiptoed to try and kiss me but I, like the idiot I am, pushed her away, turning away from her in fear she would start crying and I wouldn't be able to hold it together anymore.

I kept looking at the wall until I heard the door close and made sure she was no longer here. I just hurt the woman I am in love with, on purpose. I'm such a piece of shit. As soon as I heard the door close, I grabbed the glass I had taken upstairs from the dining hall and threw it against the door, watching it smash into pieces.

Yeah. That's exactly how I feel right now. Shattered.