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39-I've Been Better

(y/n)'s POV
I was leaning up against the wall of the cockpit with my eyes closed, clutching my left arm to me, trying so hard to meditate so I wouldn't be focused on the pain. Even though all I wanted to do was cry, "How are you doing?" Padme asked as she left the pilot seat and I felt her presence come closer as she knelt down in front of me.

"I've been better." I half smiled, keeping my eyes closed.

"Let me see it, maybe I can help." She pleaded even though I'm sure she knew there was nothing she could do. Bless her heart for wanting to try, but I wasn't getting any help until we reached Coruscant, which could be hours. Let's just hope an infection doesn't begin during that time.

"It's a cauterized wound Padme, the only thing you can do to help me is by getting me back to Coruscant." I opened my eyes to meet hers and she gave me a sorrowful look.

"I have to ask." She looked down towards the metal floor before looking back to me, "What was that scream?" Her eyes peered into mine with concern.

"I don't know," I admitted, shaking my head. It was something Ive never experienced before and something I hope to never experience again. I could feel the power of the dark side when it happened, it was the strongest I've ever felt it. "I only remember feeling afraid that I was gonna die and also rage." I paused for a moment as I relived the memory, "I was angry that I was gonna have the life I worked for taken from me so quickly. I was also thinking about Anakin and how we just got married and I was worried what he'd do to you once I was dead and then I just.. screamed." Not only that but I had a voice in the back of my mind encouraging me to let it out. I also didn't want to admit how good it had felt, it was like I was letting out all of the emotions I was feeling.

"I was scared." She admitted.

"I'm sorry Padme I didn't mean to make you scared of me."

"No, I wasn't scared of you, I was scared for you." Her eyes burned into mine, "You didn't look like you, your eyes weren't even your normal color. When you looked up at me I watched them change from yellow back to (y/e/c)." I felt shocked by this revelation, that explains why she looked nervous when she came up to me after it happened, "I may not be a Jedi but I know yellow eyes means Sith. I'm afraid of you falling back, I can't lose my best friend." She held tears in her eyes.

"That's not gonna happen," I assured her, "I was raised by the dark side so a little bit of it will always reside inside of me but I make the decision to be good, for you, for Anakin, for everyone I love, and myself. I never want to go back, I promise you I will never go back." I smiled at her as I placed the hand I still have on hers and she smiled back, I could tell she had faith in my words. "But let's not mention this to Anakin or anyone else for that matter, this stays between us."

She nodded, "I won't tell a soul."

I felt the sting from where my hand was supposed to be and I flinched as I clutched it again, "Good, now please get us to Coruscant without going through an asteroid field."

"No promises."

Anakins POV
I slowly opened my eyes and was met by a blinding light, causing me to squint as I sat up. I groaned as I felt my head throb and I reached my hand up to touch where it hurt and I felt a bandage.

What happened?

"I see you're awake." I snapped my head up to see Obi-Wan sitting in a chair at the end of the room with a bandage above his right eye.

An explosion! I remember now, someone tried to kill me. "What do we know about the attack?" I immediately spoke business, not wanting to have a useless discussion about how I'm feeling.