Until Skies Taste the Sun (Lost Series #1)

Kabanata 34

Perish

My mom died. She was declared dead on arrival.

Seconds. Minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks to months have passed... I'm still lifeless.

"Avi, kain na... Please naman, makinig ka naman sa'min." Ramdam ko ang nanunuyong  bulong ni Via sa tabi ko. 

I've been situated here in my bed for countless hours now since I lay last night. Malapit nang maghapon ulit at patapos na ang araw na water lang ang laman ng tiyan ko.

Finally... another infliction of the day will sink.

"Is she really asleep?" I heard someone whisper. I'm sure the girls were here. It was Rain's voice. The complete four of them. Of course, Mia was uncounted.

"Feeling ko. Look at her eyes, she seems not getting enough sleep. Baka sa araw lang talaga siya nakakatulog at hindi sa gabi." It was Rina's voice. 

"Tapos bumalik pa siya dito sa condo... Does she have cash? Ayaw niya naman kasing magpatulong sa pagbayad," si Joana.

Via sighed dramatically. "What do we do with this lost girl."

I was pretending all asleep the moment I heard their footsteps at the back of the room. I appreciate the care they're pursuing since day one, but all I really want is to be just alone.

"She wakes up fast just by hearing small sounds. It's impossible she's still asleep now when we're continuously talking here.  Ang feeling ko... She doesn't want and wishes for anyone now. It's not what she needed now. She wants to be alone..." sabi ni Rain. 

Tama. Please hear what she said.

I feel like ang lakas- lakas ko sa taas ngayon kung ikukumpara sa gabing 'yon. He listened to my silent prayer dahil ilang sandali lang, lumabas na sila sa room ko after doing a little argument. Makulit kasi si Via and she wants to stay pero wala na rin namang nagawa.

I got out of bed to take a bath. I finished so quick dahil wala rin namang kabuhay- buhay ang katawan ko. I feel like a dead person who has still the ability to stand and walk.

"Mommy..." I'm crying again.

Am I a bad person to wish na sana iba nalang? Sobrang sakit... Hindi ko kaya na wala si Mommy. Hindi ko kaya na wala siya...

It would be better to suffer than to lose my mother. But she's already gone... I'm suffering now...

There's just not a thing I could think of... Even someone I need could wipe my pain. Kahit si Third... I just want my Mommy back.

Despite how different the most recent images of the set looked day by day until it became a month, I could still clearly remember the moment... I can still remember how I ran hopelessly in the hallway of the hospital as I pushed the wheeled stretcher where Mom was lying on. I didn't know... her heartbeat has stopped already.