ruthless

chapter 15:not weak

nicolettas POV:

"Wake up you stupid whore" hazel is puppy talking me. Not this "please no I wanna sleep" remembering all that happened last night my body wakes me up "oh my God'' my voice was breathless "what" your an idiot what's wrong with you why would you ever talk to him about your mother

i put my head in my hands "I can't believe I told Luciano about my childhood and I cried in front of him. He held me in his arms what the fuck" I look up at hazel and shes quite surprised "oh my God" i start slapping my hands against my head you're an idiot oh my god

Hazel grabs my hands "hey this means you can trust him right?" I stare at her "yea after I was done he still held me and he opened up to me about stuff from his childhood and then he had a panic attack and I stopped it and then after he was done I sat on his lap again and then we cuddled and now I woke up here and I don't-" hazel covers my mouth with her hand "enough rambling look at how good this is for you guys he opened up you opened up TRUST"

"what are these?" she examines my wrists that have some bruises where the fuck did these come from? oh luciano's panic attack he grabbed my wrists "luciano during his panic attack he grabbed my wrists it's okay,now what am i gonna do i just opened up to him" i hold my face in my hands and hazel laughs

"Hazel this isn't funny. I'm freaking out. What if he turns away from me because he can't deal with my burden" I plop back on my bed and shake around like a child throwing a fit. "I'm going to kill someone. I'll be back" getting out of my bed I walk out of my room and hear Hazel walk not so far behind me. "Niki, come on. It's gonna be ok" I ignore her show him your not weak

I walk to the dining room "good morning niki" ignoring Antonio's greeting I walk over to Luciano "morning." he sends me a smug smile but it's wiped off when I lift his shirt and take the gun full of my mothers bullets. "Hey hey hey give that back"

ignoring him I walk down the hall heading down the stairs to the basement I hear more footsteps behind me. Making my way to a room I haven't been to it's a woman with blond hair and a nose ring. She's pretty beaten up with a few cuts and Stab wounds across her body.

"Wake up bitch" pinching her arm she wakes up "ow! who the fuck are you" slapping her as hard as I can her face turns to the side "I ask the questions blondie" she looks at me all shocked "what do you know about my mom like do you even know where she is" checking if the bullets are what I need I examine one and my finger brushes over the rose and place the bullets back in the gun

"um i don't know anything Marcus is gonna know more than me" punching her across the face as hard as I can I break her nose "NICOLETTA ENOUGH!" Turning around I see my dad three brothers Hazel and Luciano you've got to be kidding me "we have another few days until we kill another calm yourself" rolling my eyes at him his jaw clenches "Nicoletta control yourself"

My eyes wander to Luciano and I notice my heartbeat is lowering. I didn't even realize how fast it was beating until i made eye contact with him. 

The image of luciano wrapping his arms wrapping around me and letting me sob fill my mind and i can't help but smile

"Why are you smiling, what are you gonna do?" my father sounds almost nervous. My thoughts come to a hold and im brought back to reality "uh nothing just picturing me putting a bullet between.." whats this bitches name turing to the woman she looks at me with piercing eyes

"what's your name?"my hand points to her and my face contorts with confusion "stacy" she snaps at me "ooo feisty if you didn't work for my mom and i didnt wanna kill you,we would be friends" i turn back to everyone "i was just picturing putting a bullet between stacys eyes" i send a smile and walk to everyone slamming the gun into my fathers chest and hitting Luciano's shoulder as i make my way upstairs.