Revelations

Chapter twelve

The queue to the ladies was ridiculous. I knew I couldn't wait any longer. Besides I needed a breather, things were getting a little hot out there, and the confusion was setting in.

I can't be doing with these alienated feelings corrupting me. I'm not a lesbian for god's sake.

I giggled to myself, undoubtedly I was quite tipsy now. I was giggling, oblivious to other's watching me. I also wanted to numb out everything that's happened in the last week or so. Most of all how being near Jo is making me feel.

I'm not a lesbian! I shouldn't be feeling this way, besides I have Leighton now. But would it be so bad to get nervous about the prospect of maybe kissing Jo?

Yes! I'm next. I hope there's toilet roll left. I push past the woman when she comes out and to my relief there was loads of  toilet roll left. Thank god. I was over joyed. I've never wanted a wee so bad in all my life. I sat down, music was pumping through the speakers in the wall. it was pretty cool.

I was instantly thinking about Jo and that guy. Were they getting on ok. Would it come between me and Jo? Would we stop hanging out as much, or would we still be cool?

I don't have that hassle with Leighton, because they're cousin's. This guy was different. He was an older guy, no doubt he had his own place.

I was feeling kinda uneasy. I got to get another drink. I went and washed my hands and headed back to the bar.

As I came round the corner I spotted Jo and that guy on the dance floor. I couldn't help but smile, she was really putting him through his paces.

"Two vodka Red Bull's please. Put them on Taylor's tab."

He smiled. "Sure, babe." I took the drinks and turned and standing behind me was Taylor.

I jumped and he laughed "Sorry, babe. I see Pierre has his claws in Jo. He's always had a thing for her. She didn't seem interested, but, hey things change I suppose. You wanna dance?" I nodded.

He beckoned me to the dance floor. "Pon de River" was playing. Taylor totally took over, he took my arms, draping them round his neck and we were grinding together.

His body was pressed against mine, he was a natural. The music seemed to flow fluidly through his body. I was in awe. He had his hands on my hips pulling me closer, our bodies almost as one.

I've always found music to be quite arousing. I think I've found someone who also sees music the way I do. It was intoxicating.

"You having a good time babe?" Taylor shouted over the music.

I nodded. "Yeah! It's amazing."

"I'm glad. You look great out here, like you have always belonged in the clubs, not forgetting really beautiful too," I blushed, he laughed.

"So how are you and Leighton doing?" I was apprehensive to say anything, however being tipsy does make you feel a tad brash so I decided to offload.
"He's royaly pissed me off." Taylor laughed, he lifted my chin to look at him.

"You can talk to me." I nodded my head.

"It's complicated. I've always been used to having my mind to myself, to fight my demons, without anyone actually knowing how I feel about myself. When I wanna put myself down I can't, cause he'll hear me."

Tears were welling up I could feel my eyes stinging. Taylor pulled me closer holding me as though I was the only thing right then that mattered.

"Leighton is one lucky guy. If you feel he's being too intrusive then tell him. Only you can stop this feeling," and he kissed my head.