TW mentions of self-harm
{ Kiara POV }
As I walked past the beach I felt the cool breeze rush through my curls. It was honestly quite a warm night, considering it was November.
I looked over at the crashing waves when I spotted something on the sand, holy shit is that JJ? I'd recognise that person from over a mile away.
"JJ!" I rushed up to him and he quickly shot up covering his face with his arms.
"Fu- Jesus Kie, don't-don't do that to me" he held onto his chest breathing heavily.His voice was off as if he had been crying.
"Wha- why are you here?" I questioned
"Well I could ask you the same thing" he replied, sweeping sand off his face.I looked at the boy, what happened to him? The dark circles under his eyes were so big they looked like bruises, he looks like he hasn't slept a day in his life. He had also gotten alot skinnier.
His breathing was unsteady and literally sounded like he was choking on tears.
"What happened?" I asked him
"N-nothing" he replied quickly"You wouldn't be out here crying if something hasn't happened"
"Kiara, have you ever stopped to think that maybe I miss my fucking best friend" he snapped at me
"I know I know, sorry" I sighed
"Fucking gold, I wish it never existed" he hit the sand with his fists causing lots of tiny grains to fly up.
"Hey, hey please don't hurt yourself" I gently took his hands but he flinched them away from me.
"Stop" he grumbled.
"Did you- did you do that to yourself?" I pointed to the cuts and scars on his arms and wrists.
He went silent and looked down to the ground.
"I- uh... yeah I did, I'm so sorry.." he whispered
My heart dropped. Why would he do this? This is the same boy who less than a few months ago would've mocked people who did that to themselves.
I was lost for words but he slowly bent his head down into my lap and silently cried.
"It's o-"
"You better not say okay" he snapped, his voice all muffled."Fine I'm here for you, alright. But please you gotta stop doing this, I need you-we need you, are you listening to me?" I said, stroking his tangled hair.
He nodded. My own eyes prickled with tears, this really hurt seeing him like this. Rewind to a few months ago we wouldn't even dream that he would ever do this, he just wasn't that type of person.
We sat like that for a few minutes, his head resting on my lap as tears streamed down his cheeks, I was close to crying aswell.
"We need you, you know that right?" I told him.
"Do you though?" He asked, sitting up straight again."Yes JJ, look I know we don't always act like it but you really are the glue to our crew, well what's let of it atleast"
"There is no more crew... I'm just a third wheel"
"Look just because Pope and I are together it doesn't make you a third wheel alright?"
He rolled his eyes.
He than turned and his eyes bared straight down into my own.
"What?" I asked, confused as hell.He ignored me and his gaze fluttered between my lips and back to my eyes again.
I don't know why but I got the sudden urge to push forward and kiss him.
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Fanfiction❥︎ "JJ is missing Pope! What do you not understand about that? He could be getting tortured right now and we wouldn't even know it" ❥︎ "JJ...did you-did you do that to yourself?" ❥︎ "Sorry dude but love just...kills you" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~...