Rockstar Love - Book I (Is It Love? Colin)

Chapter 40 (Colin's Point of View)

Rylee and I are standing a edge of a deserted road. She has brought me here and I don't have the slightest clue why. Occasionally one or two car passes by and she has been silent for a while. Then slowly and silently she mumble,"It was here." I looked at her perplexed, at first I was confused, what is she talking about but then it dawned to me that what does it mean... It was here... In this particular place where the tragedy of her life occurred... Where she lost her best friend, her love and her child and due to which I got this Rylee today in my life. I truly wish I knew the old Rylee before this incident happened.
"You know Colin, it changed everything... It has changed me as much as it has changed the whole situation, the meaning, the...the fact that... no one stays, the harsh reality that can't be denied. But you know what, he gave me you... I was doomed before you came to my life. I still don't understand why would you choose me though." she says looking at particular spot. I don't know what she sees in their, maybe the incident is playing all over in her head and she is seeing it like a real life video. Maybe she could see herself, Evan, and how the car hitted them. Thinking about it send a shiver through out my whole body. Cold sweat drips down my spine, thinking what she has been through, then the thought that she was pregnant at that time and had a miscarriage send another shiver runs down my spine. She again spoke up,"It was this day... I came back here exactly after 6years. And I brought you with myself because I feel blessed." she says. Their is no tears in her eyes, her voice is hoarse, her emotionaless expressions, her cold empty eyes, scares me. I move closer to her and put my arms around her, I thought she would push me away but she wrap her arms around me. We didn't said a word, I silently prayed that I don't want to get apart from her. I silently thanked Evan even though I don't believe in all this but this time I felt like doing it. Maybe he will listen to my thoughts. I promised to myself that I will take care of Rylee and make her happy. I don't know how much I can keep this promise but I will try my level best.

Few hours later, I and Rylee is sitting in the balcony of my room sipping our coffee, we are talking about work and other stuff. In the back of my mind, Adam's words keep going round and round. I and Rylee didn't talk about her past, we just silently came back. I behaved normally without being too perceptive because I don't she would like it even if it's a tragic day for her.
"Umm Rylee, I have something to ask you."
"What is it Colin?" she asked.
"The producer called Adam and he made a request."
"Oh yeah... What request?"
"He asked for another musician in the group. Either a guitarist or a pianist." I said cautiously and watch her reaction. She stared at me as if to tell me to continue. So I continued, "So now the problem is new pianist will be a hell of a work in short time since our songs are almost ready but as for guitarist... Um.. You listen to all our songs and you are talented as well you will pick up in no time not to mention you're a professional." their I said it. I waited for her reaction and reply, I see her pensive, her eyes darted off to distance towards the city, with look of distant memory, a nostalgia maybe. Then she turn to me and sighed,
"Colin I understand but you know now difficult it is for me, don't you?"
"I know, of course I do. You have the time to think until we return back to New York, I know it's all so sudden."
"That day what you said back in the house, um was it for this reason?" she asked. I think she talking about me asking her about joining the band back in her parents house.
"No, that was just my wish, at that time I didn't knew about this request and everything at all. It's Adam who called me last night and informed. And to be honest it's just add up my wish for you join us."
"What about Doris?" she asked, oh Doris again.
"I will manage that. She knows as much we all do that you are good. And maybe our only hope for now. If you want to leave later than its your decision, you have that right. After all we are kind of forcing you, aren't we?" I say.
"Can I give you answers once we return to New York." she asked after giving me a small nod.
"Sure, with pleasure. I just hope the answer is positive..." I smiled. She came and hug me, kissing my checks my I grabbed her kiss her on lips. The aroma of coffee in her breath and the taste of her making me aroused but I need to control myself right now because I want to talk to her. We kissed until we suffocated and then kissed again, my hand slide up creeping inside her shirt where I feel her soft skin and her hand comes up to my neck and hold onto tight. We tasted, savoured and passionately kissed each other and pulled back. We smiled looking at each other tenderly. I make her sit on my lap, and kissed her neck, she sighs and looks into my eyes.