Survive, Boy, Survive

Chapter 23

Season 9, Ep 1: I think I'm gonna like it here
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I woke up in a hospital room, I looked around, Sam! Dean! I looked at the wires hooked to me. I breathed heavily, then my eyes flickered, the machines around me went nuts. Nurses rushed in, I saw my right ankle wrapped to hell and my left wrist wrapped to hell. I felt gauze on my ribcage,
I said" Where's my brothers?!" I made the lights flicker, and I felt the ground shaking, I breathed heavily. Then I saw Dean run in," Where is he?!"
Dean said" Riv, calm down. Calm down, all right? It's fine." I calmed down, taking steady breathes, the nurses fixed the machines. Dean walked to me,
" Where's Sammy?! What happened?! Why am I here?!"
" Sam's... he's uh, he's in a coma, he's hurt bad, Riv. You passed out on me, I didn't know what to do, you were barely breathing. Because you have a damn fractured ankle and wrist, a gash on your ribcage that's the size of your ribcage, and they're surprised you're not paralyzed. I'm gonna get you out of here as soon as I can, but for now, you're gonna power down and get rest."
" Coma?" I started freaking out,
" Those trials... River, River, hey, hey, it's gonna be fine. You gotta stay calm, okay? For yourself, for once, let yourself rest. All right?" My lip shook but I nodded my head, he needed me to be okay, I could see it in his eyes." Okay, thanks." He kissed my head," Sit tight, all right?"
" Okay."
" Try and get some sleep, they've got you on a liquid tap, and pain medicine, once they take you off, you're gonna be in a world of hurt. And I know this is gonna be another tick on the childhood trauma board, but I need you to be okay, all right, Riv? I need you to be strong right now, if you're not okay, I don't know what the hell I'll do."
" You're up to at least 126, by now."
" Yeah, I know. I'll repay you if we make it out of this. Be good." He kissed my head again before walking out, I sighed, then a tear slid down my cheek as he turned the corner. I've gotta be okay, he needs me to be okay, so I've gotta be okay for him. I've gotta be okay for Dean.

The place was rumbling, I looked at the nurses being frantic, I gulped, then pulled myself up into a sitting position. Then glass started breaking, I breathed heavily, then pulled the IVs from my arms. I got up, yelping at my ankle, I balanced myself, and groaned in pain. I closed my eyes, letting myself go a little, I opened my eyes as they glowed. My clothes were put back on me then I let the black smoke take me-

I appeared in a room with Dean, an angel and Sam,
Dean said" Well, what are the bad ones? We're out of options here, man. Good or bad, let me hear them." I stared at the machines beeping,
The angel said" I cannot promise, but there is a chance I can fix your brother. From the inside."
" From the inside? So, what, you gonna open him up?" The angel shook his head, I looked at Dean," What, possession? You want to possess Sam?"
" I told you."
" No way."
" Understood. It's your call."
" No, it's Sam's call. There's no way in hell he'd say yes to being possessed by anything."
" He would rather die." The angel turned off the monitor," I'll leave you three alone, then."
" Wait. If I consider this- And I mean just consider it- I need something, man. You got to prove to me how bad he is." He walked to Sam and put his hand on his head, then put his hand on Dean's head, I gulped.
" Close your eyes." I sighed, then leaned against the wall, my eyes went back to normal. They came back,
" What the hell are you doing, Sam?"
" As you can see, there's not much time."
" I know. Damn it. I know. How will it work?"
" Mutual benefit, I suppose. I heal Sam while healing myself."
" And when he's healed?"
" I leave. It's the best of a bad situation, Dean."
" Even if I said yes, it doesn't mean squat. Sam will never say yes- not to you."
" But he would say yes to you."

Dean was carrying me on his back, he got Sam to say yes... I'm not happy about it, he definitely tricked Sam, I know that for sure.
Dean said" So? How's it look in there?"
Ezekiel said" Not good. There is much work to be done."
" Yeah, but he's gonna wake up, right?"
" He will."
" So, when he does- What, is he gonna feel you inside, triaging his spleen?"
" He will not feel me, no. There is no reason for Sam to know I'm in here at all."
" You're joking. No, this is- this is too big."
" And what will he do if you do tell him he is possessed by an angel?"
" Well, he'll have to understand."
" And if he does not? Without his acceptance, Sam can eject me at any time, especially with me so weak. And if Sam does eject me, he will die."
" Then we keep it a secret for now. Or until Sam's well enough that he doesn't need an angelic pacemaker or I find a way to tell him. I-I... As for him being in a hospital, I'll have to figure something out."
" I can erase it all, if you like. He will not remember any of this." I laid my head on Dean's shoulder.

We were driving,
Dean said" Riv, you gotta keep this a secret, okay?"
I said" I don't wanna lie anymore." He sighed,
" I-I know, I know, buddy, but lying kinda comes with this family. I swear I'll make it right, but you've gotta keep this a secret, okay?"
" How are you gonna explain me?"
" That's a lot tape and a lot of gauze, I've patched you and him up like that before."
" What about your face?"
" I'll figure it out. Please, River, okay? I know we've screwed up in the big brother department but I need this from you, okay?"
" Don't say that. You're the best big brothers ever. Fine, I'll keep the secret."

Sam woke up, well... I'm pretty sure it's Sam.
He mumbled" Where are we?"
Dean said" Whoa! Sam?"
" What?"
" Okay, take-take it easy. How you, uh- How you feeling?"
" Tired. Like I- Like I slept for a week."
" Well, try a day. You've been out since the sky was spittin' angels."
" What the hell happened?"
" What do you remember?"
" The church, feeling like crap, the angels falling, and that's it."
" But you're feeling good?"
" Yeah. I mean, I just, um... you've been driving around with me passed out in the passenger's seat for a day?"
" Oh, I mean, I stopped, you know, let a few Japanese tourists take some pictures. Nobody got too handsy. I knew you'd pull through. I meant what I said at the church. You're capable of anything, Sam, and hell if you didn't prove me right."
" Good. 'Cause we got work to do." I looked at Dean, then laid across the backseat, gulping, staring at the top, gotta be okay, gotta be okay for Dean.

I heard Sam say" What happened to Riv?"
Dean said" He took on Abaddon and once again, survived with a few, albeit major, scratches."
" What did he do?" He scoffed, then I felt him look at me, since my eyes were closed.
" Probably got in a few good punches before she overpowered him, but hey, that kid's getting stronger. You know, sooner rather than later, he'll be our own little demon-killing machine."
" You know he's tapping his fingers, right? He's not asleep."
I mumbled" I'm not a machine, jerk. I'll be a demon-killing ninja. Like-like Michelangelo but not a turtle."
" You're positive he doesn't have a concussion."
Dean said" 60-40. Buddy, try and get some sleep." I grumbled but covered my eyes with my arm.