You know bad days happen ,bad weeks happen things over all just happen and there's nothing you can do about it .
My hair is wild curly bits frizzing unwilling to compromise the bags under my eyes only enhanced by the eyeliner I poorly scrubbed off.Hunter's jacket no longer smells like him but I continue to wear it because it hides the stains on my shirt .
My shorts ride up my ass seeing as I was going commando and just threw sweatpants over them , I look and feel rough I've had two redbulls and a pop tart .I just gotta get through class , get through homework fix myself go to work and finally go to sleep .
I need a hugHunter and I have been so busy I didn't realize how much I anchored myself to him . And his affection.
I hope he doesn't feel as if I'm dragging him down .
I walk from class to class in a zombie like state .
Simply fazing though the day . I smile , I wave . What does it matter passing faces chatter in the wind not even my own thoughts are my own .
I stop I take off my glasses and pinch the bridge of my nose feeling a full ache in my head .
10 ... just get through the day .
9 .... Everything is going to be ok.
8.... You're doing what you can.
7.... Focus on the task at handI slowly count down I realize I must look crazy , standing in the middle of the walk way . One foot in front of another
My phone buzzes .
I ignore it , Just another email just another useless spam message.
I turn the corner and the smell of cigarettes and coffee invaded my senses.
"Hunter" I mumbled
I missed him , I isolated myself from the only form of affection I get . It was driving me crazy."Aja are you ok doll" he responds.
I missed his voice.
I take a step forward...I missed his smell ...
I wrapped my arms around him and hid my face in his chest .I promised myself I wouldn't cry , I just had to make it through the day .
My glasses fog as they uncomfortably press against my face .
"What's wrong" he asked
I shook my head I've always known my head and my emotions , I know when I'm sad I know when I'm mad and happy but I didn't have a word for this .
Was it that my mom was always gone was it that my father was gone too , was it that I have so much to do and not enough brainpower , willpower.
Am I not as put together as I thought .I'm unraveling.
I look up at Hunter and he looks at me .My mask starting to chip and break away.
I let him go I turn and walk away .
"Aja how am I supposed to help when you ice me out" he grumbled.
"Hunter I don't know how to put it into words" I sigh .
"I'm just "
"Tired."
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The book worm
Romance"I have worked my ass of to get where I am , I don't have to prove myself to a entitled little boy like you." I said to him as I pack my things away . He scoffs and his smirk wipes away. Before he opens his mouth I continued," and another thing I'm...