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Wala naman akong dapat ipag-alala. I know they've been consistently in some articles online and all of it are suspecting that they are dating. Iyon ang naging dahilan ng pagduda ko noon. However, I failed to address that because things came up. Then, I forgot about it.
Honestly, I have no reason to doubt anymore. Pagkatapos ba naman ng lahat ng nangyari? I think one of the things that I gained from our past issues is the fact that I trust him more now. He proved to me just enough.
However... what I just witnessed a while ago is giving me a reason to be anxious. Cheating... isn't impossible. And more than the pain of facing the truth and betrayal, now that I'm married and pregnant, one of my greatest fears is having this marriage... this family... broken.
Huminga ako ng malalim at matapos ang ilang pabalik-balik kong paglalakad ay nagpasya na akong maupo dahil sumasakit ang ulo ko. My hand automatically caressed my baby bump. I naturally concluded that my headache was because of my pregnancy. Kasi wala namang ibang rason. Minasahe ko ang sentido ko habang nakasarado ang mga mata ko.
"Does it still hurt? Shall I carry you to our room?" Boses agad ni Cell ang narinig ko kasabay ng tunog ng pagbubukas ng pinto. I opened my eyes as I heard it.
Mabilis ang mga hakbang niya papalapit saakin. He was carrying all my things. Ibinaba niya iyon sa tabi ko at lumuhod sa harap ko para makapantay ang mukha ko. He held my cheeks.
"I'm fine. Kaya ko naman maglakad. I'll stay here for a bit."
"I think you need to lie down," sabi niya habang inilalagay sa likod ng tenga ko ang ilang hibla ng buhok ko na nakakalat sa mukha ko. He looks really worried, pero hindi naman ganon kalala ang nararamdaman ko.
"Later. Papalipasin ko lang 'to," sagot ko at hinila ang braso niya upang gabayan siya paupo sa tabi ko. Para naman hindi siya nakaluhod sa harap ko.
"Come here..." he said, inviting me in his arms. I hugged his waist sideways. His left arm enveloped me. "Do you want me to massage your head?"
"Weh? Marunong ka ba?" Mapang-asar kong tanong.
"Isn't it naturally learned?"
I chuckled. "Is it?"
"It's not hard."
Tumawa ulit ako at ipinahinga na lang ang ulo ko sa kanyang balikat. I close my eyes.
"Wag na... okay na ako sa ganito," I said.
"Clear your thoughts, okay? Maybe Mori is right. The situation a while ago stressed you out."
"Hmm..."
Nailabas ko na naman ang frustration ko kanina sa kanya habang kinu-kwento ko kung anong nangyari. Iyong iba naman... hindi na 'yon mawawala. I still feel angry and worried. But I'm calm, I know.
Tahimik lang kaming dalawa. It seems like he's taking it seriously that I shall clear my thoughts first. Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at tumitig sa kawalan ng mahabang segundo.
"Cell..." tawag ko.
"Yes?"
I swallowed a lump. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko dahil sa kaba. Let's just do this all for once or it won't quiet down every time I won't address it. More than hearing what he'll answer, somehow, I feel more nervous about his reaction. Magagalit ba?
"Who's that..." I breathe deeply. "Eloise?"
"Eloise?" ulit niya sa pangalang tinanong ko. He was caressing my arm, but it stopped after I asked the question. Pinanatili ko ang mga mata ko sa unahan. It was better that I'm not looking at him. "You know her?"
