I couldn't sleep at all tonight. I just stared at the wall as I laid there. It was currently 5:37 in the morning and I'd been tossing and turning all night restlessly. When it hits 10am, I have to get ready to leave with Jack. Only four and a half hours left and I couldn't tell if I was excited or sad.
I wasn't excited.
I don't want to go.
But I think it's the smarter option, isn't it?...
I made it downstairs for breakfast.
There was B and Psycho, but...Riot was no where to be found.
"Morning. They got your favorites since it's your last day." B stated.
I grinned to show my appreciation.
"You don't seem all that excited." he claimed.
"No, I am. I'm still thinking about if I packed everything." I lied.
"Ah."I sat down and started fixing my plate at the table.
"What time do you leave?" B asked as he sipped his coffee.
"In the next hour."
"Damn. I guess he's eager."
"Yea. He wants to show me his home studio, so...he's kind of excited." I snickered.
"I see.""Are you sure you want me to go?" I asked.
"Yea. I can't keep you locked here with us all the time. You haven't been away from us for longer than a couple of hours in years. And like I said, he's a pussy. I trust him."
"Yea..."I tried to come up with another way for him to say no.
"What about Zachariah?" I wondered.
"What he don't know won't hurt him." he stated and took a bite of bacon. "We don't visit him that often in a year anyway. Like what? Once or twice? He'll be alright."
"Right..."I got a text.
"Hey, I'm halfway there, hope you're ready!" Jack sent.
I didn't respond.
B's phone began to ring.
"I'll be back." he said and left the table to answer it.I looked at Psycho and he looked at me.
"I'm gonna miss you guys." I told him.
"We'll miss you too."
I looked down at my plate.
"I know you don't wanna go." he stated.
"But I have to."
"Why?"
"To make it last."I looked up at him as he looked at me.
"I want something that lasts, Psy." I repeated.
He just stared at me.
"This one will last, right? If I go it'll last? I won't feel alone or gross anymore. I'll finally feel loved and healthy. Right?"
"I don't know, Lei..." he answered quietly.
"Why doesn't anyone know?" I sniffed."I can tell you what I think. And you take this any way you want." he began. "If your heart's in it, it will last."
I looked at the table.
"Did you hear me?" he asked.
I nodded.The doorbell rang.
"I got it." he insisted and got up.
I heard the door open then Jack's voice as he greeted Psycho.
I was soon blessed with a kiss on my cheek.
"Good morning, beautiful. Are you ready?"
"Yea, just let me get dressed and I'll get Malcolm to bring my things downstairs."
"Okay."I got up and walked towards the elevator.
I stopped on Riot's floor first.
When it came to its stop and the doors opened, I saw him opening his bedroom door to go inside.I just stared as the words didn't leave my mouth. He walked inside.
The elevator began to shut again and I pressed my floor.
I got out and walked to my room but something caught my eye.
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No Good For You
Romance(Not poly) Leila lives with three overprotective family friends that don't allow her to do anything but work and stay safe. Each one of them is crazy in their own way and just so happen to be the top men of the scariest mafia in the state so you'd...