The regrets of Katherine Barnes

Chapter 33

A/N
Can someone PLEASE explain to me why there's more readers on some chapter than others like seriously it goes 9 views 14 views. . . Please explain I'm so confused and on another note, IM GOING TO AGE OF ULTRON ON FRIDAY! AHHH! Okay read on.
Ren's POV

Have you ever thought, wow what happened last night then everything comes back to you. Yep... that just happened to me.

I try not to wake up Newt as I sneak out of his grip. I stretch and look out the window at the sunny sky and birds chirping. Annoying birds it's too early for you gosh darn it!

I step over Newt, careful so I don't step on him. I keep on the balls of my feet to stay silent, wanting at least a few minutes to myself.

I slip into the bathroom and turn on the lights creating a yellow light. Facing the mirror I'm faced with a different girl. One without rings under my eyes or a desperate aura. My hair is still a problem though.

The more I stare the more I think, how can I be a murderer? My parents, Logan, Angel, and countless others are my fault. Should I really add to that list? Why should I let the murder continue? Let Loki make those innocent kids be motherless? Fatherless? Kill off generations. This whole mess is my fault, and it's my turn to clean it up. But. . .I'm scared.

Never have I gone to war, or killed on purpose. I just, can't.

Newt's voice breaks the silence, "Ren, you alright?" He steps into the small bathroom.

" Yeah, yeah I'm fine, " I answer wiping the tears I didn't even know I shed off my face. " I'm just thinking of everything. "

" A lot has happened in the last few months, " Newt replies rubbing his eyes, " What are you doing up this early anyways? "

" Just woke up, shucking birds were chirping, " He hums in agreement. " Newt, I might go to the city. " This woke him up right away.

" Nope, end of discussion, " He responds.

" Wha- What why?" I stutter, utterly confused. No, THE FRICKEN FATE OF THE WORLD DEPENDS ON THIS.

" I can't lose you, not again. Plus you promised, " He pets my cheek with the back of his hand. I slap it away. His face twist into confusion. " Are you mad?"

" No, I just don't like being pet, " I answer sarcastically nodding my head left and right with each word before I stop and throw my hands in front of me and practically yell, " Yes I'm a little mad you're not letting my go! People's lives are at stake! Dammit the whole world is practically at stake! And you're not the slightest bit concerned."

" Well, yes I am, but I can't lose you, " He says grabbing my shoulders and looking down at me, since I am a bit shorter (by a bit I mean like three inches.)

" You won't lose me, I ha-"

He cuts me short. " I mean emotionally."

" Eh- what? What does that-"

" I know war will do something to you. It already has! Your quiet, you barely eat, you mumble in your sleep, and. . . you've. . .changed. " He answers, slowly his voice quiets.

" Newt, it's still me, " I reply placing a hand on his shoulder. " I need to go. You, Minho, Thomas, Riley, Peter, everyone is in danger because of me and my stupid alien side."

" What if I come with you, " He offers. I start laughing at the insane idea. Him, coming with me! Yeah no, that will only get him killed or worse. Loki would probably slowly kill him in front of me, just to watch me suffer.

" Nope, sorry not happenin'. You'll die, or worse. . .expelled, " I say laughing inside my head. His face just looks utterly confused. " It's a Harry Potter joke god. " He looks at me in disbelief. "I'm sorry if make jokes at inappropriate times! "

" I'm coming, end of discussion," He says, once again.

"You said that five minutes ago!" I respond. I roll my eyes. " I'm going to go talk to the professor about it. "

I exit the bathroom with Newt trailing behind me, trying to change my mind. I grab my fuzzy maroon robe on the way out my door.

My footsteps echo throughout the halls, they would be louder if Newt would shut up for a moment and accept the fact that I'm not letting him come just to get himself killed.

I reach the Professor's door and knock, Newt standing behind me.

" Come in," Charles voice rings. I open the door as quickly as I can and slam it in Newt's face once I'm in, not looking back to see if I caught any of his fingers.

I turn around to see him sitting there with his hands folded on the desk.

" Now, what do you want to talk about?" He asks looking at me with curiosity. Taking a deep breath I walk over and sit in one of the plush chairs.

" What do you think of me going to the city, alone, to conduct a plan and take Loki down from his throne of lies and destruction, " I ask leaning forward a bit.

He looks at me, staring into my eyes as if he's trying to find all my secrets about this plan I have.

" I would encourage you to do so if, " He pauses, " you bring your friends. "

" Okay so Thomas, Minho, and Newt, got it," I answer standing up about it head out the door to pack my bag.

" What about Luna, " He asks. I stop midway through the room.

" She thinks I'm a monster and a killer," I whisper harshly looking down, " I doubt she's want to come with the likes of me. She probably wants me to leave or to be murdered for revenge. I'm going to tell the boys then pack. "

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3rd POV Because I can...

Ren slowly packs a small backpack with only the necessities and a book she found. Its about a week's walk from the school. Down the broken road, forest, and more.

She bends down to pick up her shorts that she wore on the way here. Something slips out of the pocket. Something. . . shiny. Slowly she bends down and picks up a chain. The more she holds it the more it becomes familiar. The necklace Jack gave her. . .for her 21/14 birthday party. All those years ago.

She sighs and whispers to the necklace as if it would deliver the message to him, " I'm so sorry, if it wasn't for me. . . out friendship would be intact. "

She looks at the chain once more before opening the clasp and connecting it behind her neck. She let's the little heart shaped key fall into place. Her hand grasps it and hides in under her shirt.

She grabs her backpack and heads out of her room, making sure to shut off all the lights. The one thing she left is the picture of her family. Forgotten and broken under the bed from her rampage the night before.

Ren shuts the door silently and walks past every door down the hall to the bannister. She jumps onto the polished wood and slides down to meet her friends waiting at the bottom by the door, each carrying their own backpacks.

" Ready? " Minho asks.

" As I'll ever be," Ren answers with a sadden expression. She'd be leaving one of her friends. Even if Luna hates her, Ren still considers her a wonderful companion.

Thomas pushes opens the door open. They all walk down the path of the road, only Ren seems to notice. A bleach blonde girl with a lime green stripe sits by her window watching the group with an angry expression. Luna sits up and punches a vase with so much hatred.

" Ren Barnes if I ever see your face again, I will slice it off and kill you myself," Luna mumbles stomping towards her bed.