The new marauder

Chapter 31

I didn't get expelled. I got detention every Saturday for the next five weeks and I'm banned from hogsmeade until fifth year. I deserve it for what I did.

I'm not very liked anymore, my close friends still like me and the odd other people aren't bothered but I'm not as liked as I was. Not that I care.

I haven't been in the best mood since it happened a couple of days ago. I've been distant from everyone not speaking, getting on with work in class. I don't want to be expelled so I'll behave. Dumbledore won't let me listen to my prophecy until I improve my behaviour.

My tummy rumbles but I ignore it, not being in the mood for food.

I need to be alone.

Standing up I walk out of the common room, it's after curfew so I lurk in the shadows so not to be seen. if I'm seen, I'll be I more trouble than I already am.

Arriving at the door, I walk in front three times thinking of a place I can be alone.

I open the door and see the room I'm most scared of. My little cell, the red walls cushioned with hard pillows. The light that came from no where.

Closing the door behind me I crawl over to the corner where I used to stay and do what I've been wanting to do for a while.

I cry.

Next morning I wake up, quickly run back to my dorm to get changed and tell Lily to give Remus his present. Then, slowly and keeping my head down, I walk to Mcgonagalls office where I'll be serving my detention.
But as I'm writing Bellatrixs letter I'm struck with curiosity as to why she didn't get detention. her name was clearly in the paper and it was clear she'd been the cause behind it all, so why wasn't she suffering like I am?
Is it because I actually attacked her? Because she's gave me a bloody good reason to.
I continue writing though, as I don't won't to be here all day.

I yawn for what seems like the hundredth time tonight. I've just finished cleaning and it run longer than it should have so its ten thirty. The teachers don't seem to care, though why should they? I'm just I threat to society, I'm surprised no aurors have come to kill me yet. maybe they're waiting for a time I won't be expecting it.
Mumbling the password I can't be bothered to clime one more step so I crash down on the sofa instantly falling into a deep slumber.

Sirius POV

James had a great birthday but was a bit sad that Summer couldn't be there. I feel so sorry for her, and it was all my damn cousins fault. why didn't she get detention?

We're heading down to breakfast next morning, when I notice her spread out on the sofa fast asleep.

"She looks exhausted."

"She was cleaning all day yesterday, only got fifteen minute break."

"I still think they're being a bit hard on her."

"Yeah but she thinks she deserves it and that's even worse." She starts to sit up and I say to her quietly

"Hey, we're going down to breakfast would you like to come with us?"

"Mno I just want to sleep for a bit more."

"Okay."

"Okay."

And she goes back to sleep.

Summer POV
Sitting on the grass by the lake on my own is okay any other time. but today not so much. I've been feeling more and more alone and sad and I might just go home. I'm clearly. It wanted here anymore and I don't want to be killed just yet in life. my fingers curl around the green blades of grass and I rip it out the ground.
I notice one of the thestrals on the other side of the lake.

Thestrals aren't as creepy as people make them out it be. they're a bit boney but they're not ugly.
People just don't like them because they can only be seen by people that have seen death.
People like me.
I jump when I throat clears behind me and whip around to see Dumbledore.

"Good evening professor Dumbledore."

"Good evening."

"What are you doing here sir?"

"You see I've come to try and find a girl who wants to hear her prophecy."

"No point looking here then sir."

"Why not?"

"You'll only find failure here."

"And what failure would that be?"

"Me."

He sighs and sits down on a chair he just conjured.

"You're not a failure Summer."

"Yes I am, I don't even deserve to be at hogwarts."

"Of course you do."

"No I don't, I'm not wanted. I've never been wanted my entire existence. my mother only wanted my brother and she clearly showed it. why would here be any different."

"But you are wanted! What about your friends."

"They survived before, they can survive without me."

"You want to leave."

"I want to leave if no one wants me here."

"But people do want you here."

"Like who?"

"Me for instance, and you're friends who are looking over at us."

I turn my head to see the guys standing in the door way.

I look away quickly.

"They have each other."

"But now that they know you, they want you to stay. I can't stop you from leaving but you might want to take it up with them first."

He stands and leaves, the chair disappearing too. I keep my head down as I hear them approach.

"What did he want?"

"Nothing."

"Right and pigs can fly."

"Summer?"

"He was looking for me to tell me he'd got the prophecy but I told him I don't want to hear it."

"Why not!"

"Because I have a feeling it will probably say things I already know."

"But-"

"It doesn't matter."

I turn to leave but I'm grabbed by the worst and yanked back by James.

"Summer you can't keep moping around like this!! We know you've been revealed and that sucks. it sucks that you got into to trouble for sown thing you can't control but you need to let it go!! We all care about you and we miss the old you!"

the old me.

"You used to always make us laugh and you've helped us so much in the short time we've known each other. before I met you I thought I had everything I needed. But now I know you I'd never imagine a life without you, without my sister that I never had."

"You think of me as a sister?"

"Of course I do! So does Remus and Peter and uh Sirius too!!"

I notice his hesitance to say Sirius's name so I'm guessing he probably doesn't like me.  There goes that friend.
He probably won't be the first to leave.