The Alpha's Goddess

Chapter 50

It is now been a week since Embry phased. He was a calm puppy. I am not suppose to have favorite's but damn this puppy is just so calm and easy to get along with. We have been keeping an eye on Jacob this week. Billy contacted Sam telling him that Jacob is starting to fill out more.

On top of that, bitch ass bella has been coming to La Push more. She makes my skin crawl and do not even get me started on her personality. It is such bullshit fakeness. I think I would rather smell dead animal than deal with her. Sam laughs at me at this point over my pettiness towards this bitch.

Another thing this man has done is use my baby against me. When I start getting really upset or pissed off, he just hands me Melody. Granted it instantly calms me down because she is just the cutest baby in the world.

Oh well, enough bitching. Today I am at the pack house while Sam, Paul and Jared are out on patrol. Embry has gone back to school today since he has his shift under control. I have started making sure snacks are constantly available for these boys since they eat ALL the time. Once the food is all set out, I decided to curl up with my baby and relax watching some F.R.I.E.N.D.S. While I am relaxing the front door busts open and I see my calm puppy Embry not so calm.

"Uhhh Em, you okay? You are suppose to be in school" I ask nervously not knowing how this is going to go.

"No. I just fucking imprinted and I am freaking out!" He says beginning to pace.

"Okay sweetie, I need you to walk me through it." Ariel says.

I sit down across from her and sigh heavily.
"It all started when I got to school obviously." I begin to tell her

Flashback

I was running late for 1st period so I just decided to skip and go for 2nd. When I was getting there I was able to avoid Jacob and Quil. As the day went on, I was able to handle several people asking me if I use drugs, etc.

It was now lunch and I was not sure what to do today since I cannot really sit with any of my friends since I could phase at any time. Even though I am chilled out for the most part.

I decided to just go to the library instead but as I turned around I ran into someone. As soon as I looked up slightly and made eye contact my breath hitched. Oh gosh.

Everything stop around me. It was just the two of us. Shit this is what Sam was talking about when you see your future and other events with them.

I am pulled out of my trance with them yelling at me.

"Seriously. Now you show your face around here. Where have you been? It has been a week and no one has seen or heard from you other than joining the cult." They said.

I couldn't say anything. I was still in shock that I imprinted already, and they them of all people were my imprint. I mean I knew I always had a crush but damn.

What if they don't want me? What if they reject me? How would I ever tell them about the legends?

"Are you even listening to me?! After all these years you have nothing to say? Well how about I say it. Fuck you Embry. You were suppose to be one of the good ones and all you are is a drug using, cult participating bastard." They yell in my face.

My temper is at it's peak now. I start to shake and run out the school doors. I jump into my car and drive.

I pull off to the side of the road and scream my head off and punching the steering wheel. After I finally calm down, I drive to Ariel's. She is the only one who can calm me down from this.

Flashback over

"So yeah. I was doing really well until I was reminded that I was a bastard child." I say to her trying to contain my tears.

"Embry, sweetie come here" she says. I get up and sit beside her curling into her motherly arms. I can't help it anymore and let the tears fall freely.

"Emrby I know you are upset about being called a bastard, but is there something more you are not telling me that fits into this story?" She asks.

I just sit there not knowing or even wanting to talk about this. Fuck this is so embarrassing and nerve-racking. After several more minutes of being silent and her running her fingers through my hair, I finally sit up.

I turn my body I am sort of facing away from her because I cannot look at her face when I tell her. I take a deep breath and begin to talk.

"My imprint, as kids growing up, it has always been them for me. The way they smile, laugh, goof around, the way their eyes sparkle in the sun, just everything. A simple smile from them can change my entire day. I am not sure if they know about how I feel or even if they feel the same. But one thing is, it would take a lot of courage and strengthen to actually admit to liking or maybe even being in love with each other. For years I always fantasied what it would be like to hold them, kiss them, love them, and to call them mine and me their's. But sadly, after today's interaction I highly doubt anything will actually happen between us. I could see the hurt and heart break in their eyes from me being away and not talking to them for a week. I just, Ariel I do not even know what I am going to do." I finish telling her.

"Well for starters, if they looked hurt from you being away for only a week, I would say you have a high chance of them feeling the same. Now, why would it take a lot of courage or strength? And if you don't mind me asking, who is the imprint?" She says softly.

I let out a small sob burring my head in my hands.

"Ariel you are the first person that knows this, but I am gay." I say softly.

"Okay sweetie, that's okay. You are you no matter what." She says.

"Do you still wanna know who the imprint is?" I ask her.

She looks over at me with a smile.
"If you feel comfortable enough to tell me, then yes." She say.

"It's....

Jacob...."