ruined, but is it?

what's wrong with you!

Shuffling a bit, rain furrowed his brow has he started to feel his bladder. He then turned his head a bit to the side has he felt warmth to his back. Rain slowly opened his eyes to dart them about a bit, to move his head up and down, he was unaware, he was laying to his side with payu to his side with his arm over him a bit lower on his body.
Making a face, rain then slowly got up to sit to hang his head to become confused, his whole body felt sore, especially his lower back.
Rain darted his eyes over his legs that were tingling a bit to then place his hands to each to rub to become even more confused, he didn't quite understand why he's legs were feeling like this.
Still half tired, rain shook his head to then get slowly up to stumble to the bathroom with his head hung to yawn. He then better up a hand to his neck to rub to make a face has it was a bit hard for him to walk.
Rain then went to the bathroom to relieve himself.
Payu moved his head up and down to take in a deep breathe, to then move his his stomach to let his arm go over the edge to take in deep breathes has his head was turned to the side.
Relieving himself, rain then wobbled to the sink to wash his hands to then widen his eyes, taking in very deep breathes he then turned his head to peer his eyes down, to then place the water off to take a hand behind to place two fingers to something that was dripping down the back of his leg, he then moved his hand around to eye it to shutter, he knew what that substance was, he then turned to look out the open bathroom door to start to grow in anger has he started to wake up and remembered what happened.
Cleaning his back side a bit more, rain has fast has he could went to get dressed in his boxers, sweatpants and a shirt to then go to his weaponry room to then grab one of his guns to load to then go straight to the living room to stand to the side of the couch to then point it at payu to take in very deep breathes to grit his teeth, his gun started to shake in his hand has he watched payu contently sleep.
Why am I not shooting! This bastard raped me! Said he wouldn't! Made me believe that too! Damnit! I need to blow his fucking brains out for What he has done! But why won't I!
Rain clicked his tongue to then roll his eyes to lower his gun to then turn to place it to his coffee table to eye it.
Even after what he has done...... He is my..... First......oh god!
Rain placed his hands to his eyes to groan a bit.
Payu shuffeled a bit to then slowly open his eyes to look up to see rains figure.
"Mm.... Rain?"
Rain took his hands away to then look forward in anger to then turn to look over payu who looked like nothing happened.
Rain narrowed his eyes to then punch payu and hard in the face.
Payu went to his back to place his hands to his nose to whimper.
"You are going to get out of my apartment you fucking perverted rapist!"
Payu groaned.
Rain parted his lips has he started to see blood come down, he signed to hang his head.
To the bathroom, payu had a pair of boxers on to be sitting to a chair, to wince here and there has rain was before him to have a cotton swab to be cleaning his nose, payu darted his eyes over rain, who then got up to grab an ice pack to then place to payus nose and hard.
Payu groaned a bit to then place his hands to it. Rain got up with the used cotton swabs to then throw them away to eye the trash.
"Why payu...... Just why!"
Payu took in a deep breathe to then move the ice pack down to eye over it.
"No matter my reasons........ It never should have happened."
Rain turned to look over payu with anger.
"No shit it shouldn't! You said it never would then you do that! Why!"
Payu turned his head to look to rain..
"Rain......I could give you...."
"Ugh! You know I'm straight! Told you I wanted to lose my first kiss with a woman! I cant believe you did this! I want you out of my apartment!"
Rain then started to leave to then stop to look down to eye over payus hand around his wrist.
"Rain..... Can we please talk about this."
Rain scoffed to then take his hand away..
"I believed you. Said nothing like that would happen then.......I don't want you here! Get out!"
Rain then stomped away.
Payu turned his head to watch him go to then hang his head to dart his eyes.
Slowly he got up to then go look about to then head to the living room to then look across to see rain to his kitchen to be making food to grumble. Payu took in a very deep breathe to then step a bit closer to keep his eyes to rain.
"Rain....... Can I please stay."
Rain stopped what he was doing to then turn his head to eye over payu.
"No! Why would you ask me that after what you did!"
Payu hung his head to play with the ice pack.
"It was a mistake rain. It will not happen again."
Rains lips parted to then snap his head to look forward to take in deep breathes, he really wanted to punch payu again. Rain never wanted to lose his virginity in such a way, he also didn't like how payu referenced has such.
"You said I'm not your type, said you wouldn't......I can't trust you. I want you out when it's there sleep time."
Rain then turned to go to his bedroom to close and lock the door has he needed time to understand this.