Broken lovers- a Chase and Madelyn story

CHAPTER 36

One week later
Today was the photoshoot day and we had already picked what we were going to wear.
Some groans distract me from my thoughts as I feel Chase's hand stroking my cheek, trying to wake me up, even though I had been awake for almost half an hour, overthinking everything, which i shouldn't be doing.

I turn around to see him with a sleepy face as he hums- morning- kissing the freckles of my collarbone.

-Morning- i say, it looked more as a moan.

-It's been a week and a few days since we have been applying that ointment, should we stop doing that?- he asks, rubbing my arm.

-I think so- i say- so are you just thinking of what I think you are thinking not even at 9am? boy you need help- i say laughing.

-Heyyy i was just thinking about everything in general not only about that- he says sticking out his tongue.

I grab his face and start kissing him passionately, i needed him more than anything right now, we had waited for too long.

-I can't believe this is actually happening- he says smiling as he got on top of me.

I just giggle as he takes off my t-shirt and i kiss his neck.

He continues kissing every inch of my body and moments after i find myself naked on top of him, he taking his underwear off.

-um..erm- i say while he continues kissing my neck passionately, not noticing my uncomfortableness- erm.. chase- i say a little bit louder.

He suddenly looks at me, with his plum lips, a confused look on his face- you okay?- he asks.

-No..erm.. yeah i just don't feel like it- i say hiding my face, feeling embarrassed.

-Oh- he says- it's um... it's okay, here- he says handing me my t-shirt.

-Thanks- I say, putting it on me and lying besides him, but facing the other way.

-You sure you are okay? babe if i did something wr-

-Chase you did nothing wrong i promise, i am just not feeling like doing it- i say staring at the white wall, because if i looked right at him, he would immediately know that I was lying. But I was too scared to admit the truth, I felt weak, once again.

I can feel him getting closer, but I couldn't look at him, my eyes were filled up with tears. I notice his lips on my shoulder- it's okay mads, it is okay- he says reassuring me.

I try to cry in silence, not knowing what was going on in my mind, trying to be as silent as possible.

I open my eyes, feeling some tears on my face. I look up to see no one in the bed, so I just get up, rubbing my eyes and washing my face, trying not to cry because of what I was feeling, everything I was remembering.

I immediately see a note on the mirror "went to grab some of ur fav snacks, i'll be back soon. love u <3" I grab it as I smile to myself, feeling butterflies and forgetting everything that had happened.

The love that I had to this boy was unreal, I didn't even know that humans were able to feel this, I thought this was a fairy tales thing, but it turns out to be true, and it feels so real that i am scared to lose everything.

I lie down on the sofa, texting some friends and reflecting about life in general. Everything was going too good to be true.

I get lost on my thoughts until I heard the lock and not so after the door opening.

-Heyy i'm home- he excitedly says as he closes the door, dropping all the grocery stuff on the counter.

-hii- i say walking to him- what did you buy- i ask checking some things that were visible through the bags, still hugging him.