Into deception

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"Okay and-" she hums for a second "done" the brushes under my eyes cease and i finally open them to see all the redness completely gone, "i can't do anything about your eyes but that will go away in give or take five minutes"

"That's fine Lev" i smooth over the powder with my fingers once more making sure there's not a single part of me that looks like i just had three heart attacks. "where is he taking me exactly"

"That's a suprise" she giggles putting away all the products she had taken out.

"How am i meant to go a second without telling him"

"You could tell him" Grace say's looking at the pregnancy stick that's sitting on the counter next to her.

"She's not wrong but if i were you I'd wait"

"What aren't you telling me" i squint looking over her smug little face, but she does a great job at looking anywhere but me.

"Mia?" Nicholas voice comes to sound and it all happens so fast that i have to let out a sigh of relief, Grace snatches the stick hiding it behind her back, Levi puts the last of her things away before spinning around with a clueless look to her, and i, well i stand there paralyzed. "Hey" he says as he walks over to me cupping my face with worry "Are you okay?"

"Yeah everything's fine why?" Lev answers for me.

"Well because the door is off it's hinges to start with love" Max says joining the little gathering, but while they all start explaining something that can't exactly be explained without spilling the truth, Nicholas turns his attention back onto me.

"Mia?"

"Everything is good" I manage to muster up and say "I promise"

Although i know he doesn't believe me it's his trust for me that does it, he nods "okay then, come with me?"

I nod following him out but not before taking the pregnancy stick from Grace who has passed it over to me. It feels as though i have a bomb in my hand and it's about to go of "are you sure you're okay"

"Couldn't be better" he squeezes my hand that I'm using a crutch almost, we walk out into a car that seems to be waiting for us right outside. There's guards planted on every inch of this property, i dont think you could point to an empty area. After driving for not even a couple of minutes he steps out, holding my hand to help me follow him, it's then that i feel him slightly shiver.

"Nicholas is everything okay?" but he say's nothing, just a nod with a smile that tells me otherwise. With the stick still in my hand we begin to walk towards a small bridge, but it's completely covered in these little warm yellow lights. The snowy trees are even laced with them too and i can't help but breath out from how pretty this whole scene looks. My heels tap against the cleared cobble stone pathway till finally, we're standing in the midst of the lights, listening to nothing but our racing minds. I glance down seeing the water underneath me completely frozen over, it's like the nights sky itself is stored right under the frozen ice. Our breaths freeze over our heads as we look at one another.

"I told you once, that you were my existence, that you are why this version of me is alive to begin with, and that's true" he begins suddenly and my heart drops to the very bottom of my stomach "I feel like i have loved you even before my time, before humans or worlds existed, before stars littered our universe because that is how deeply you run in my veins. I don't ever want to be parted from you Mia, and even though this does nothing to show the weight of how i feel i want the people that walk by graves to see that i belonged to you, that i got to love you until the very last beat of my heart, i want the soil that we are buried under to weep flowers above you so that those who live have to stop and stare as i have done ever since i met you. So I ask you this, will you marry me?"

I stand inhumanly still as he bends down on one knee slipping out a ring that he holds up to me.

"Will you let me love you till death, Mia Evars?"

My mouth opens to say something only for nothing to come out, he chuckles at this which calms the pressure around me "There isn't a universe where i would say no in, so yes Nicholas Bane, yes" i cry as he stand, slipping the ring perfectly onto my finger before kissing me. Our lips celebrate in ways of their own, our bodies press tighter against one another and i could simply explode.

"Did we just do that" i giggle against his warm hold.

"I think we did" he laughs and i tie my arms around his neck only to feel my heart drop, he see's this instantly "Mia?"

"I have something for you too" i step back putting my hands behind my back "It's safe to say i dont think either of us will forget this day, that's for sure" slowly i pull out my hands showing the one thing that i was dying because of mere moments ago. His face goes pale, at first i think he might fall but then he picks me up spinning me in complete circles as his face rests in the crook of my neck.

"When" he lets me down yet still holding my waist.

"Just now, back at the party" i cry because he has tears of his own flooding out, "we're going to be parents" i laugh and he smiles with those glossy green eyes of his.

"We're going to be parents"

The moment slows, like all that adrenaline has finally exploded and swirled around the both of us and even though it's the dead of winter i swear it feels like the sun is right above me. It's not however, because the full moon shines it's white across us both, still, we're warm beyond measures, and I'm pregnant with the man i have just gotten engaged to.

I stare into his eyes and smile. If you told me years ago that I'd meet the love of my life and that I'd be expecting a child together all at the same time i would've probably laughed right before killing you. As a child I wished to be rescued, prayed that the pain I felt would just stop. It never did and no one ever came to help, I think the hardest part in living with pain is coming to an understanding that there's no such thing as a Prince Charming or a brave knight, that you're on your own. It's a scary thing to come to terms with, and it's probably safer to keep being delusional because if I had accepted that horrible but true fact I don't think I would've been here today.

I saved myself while imaging being saved by a whole different person, I imagined a different universe that didn't contain an ounce of pain and it saved me. I grew up and fought even harder, I fought until my path crossed with someone who I no longer needed, but that was the real beauty, it's when you no longer need someone as much as you once did that you can see with a clearer perspective. I never needed him, I was perfectly fine being the way I was and yet I wanted him.

At the beginning I was right to be angry, right to feel betrayed but all along I was fooling my heart Into it's greatest Deception by pretending I didn't love him, because to not love him is to walk through life completely soulless.

He's the love of my life.