"we can never be friends"
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"i hate you"
"yeah, i bet you do"
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"we are insane, that's just the way it goes"
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"is this karma for everything i've said to you?"
"i am karma, babe"
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"i left before you woke up, i don't feel right seeing you so...
We were on the road for some time now, I kind of fell asleep leaning on the window, but the car stopping woke me up. Also the boys were all laughing at something, but not too loud probably to not wake me up, but the car did the job. I was surprised that the first thing I saw was Leclerc laughing, the last couple of weeks he was more furrowing than smiling.
"Should I bring you something, baby?" Pierre asked me, we stopped at a gas station
"No thanks" I leaned back on the window, I was too tired to tell him to not call me 'baby'
"Okay, we'll ve right back" He said and they all left the car and went inside the gas station, I probably fell asleep again and the next thing that woke me up was Leclerc getting in the car with a can of beer in his hand. Sure he bought alcohol. But what I said I won't care anymore.
"What time is it?" I asked
"Midnight" Leclerc answered
"Thanks" I whispered making myself comfortable in the seat, I think I won't be able to sleep anymore even tho it's midnight
"We're close to Dijon, still far away from home, you can still sleep, baby" Pierre said. Go fuck yourself with that baby thing.
"Hm" was all I said, I was too full of this bullshit of his
I heard Leclerc chuckle silently, but I ignored him succesfully.
"Should I play some music?" Esteban asked
"Yeah, I'll share you the playlist we made on the way there" I said doing it right away, Esteban then played the music
Once I heard "met you in the bathroom at 12:05 and I fucked you again, we can never be friends" I remembered too fast, this is the worst concidence ever, how can a song be so fucking relatable to two people sitting in the same car right now trying to not to look at each other. Or at least I felt like he realised it too. I wanted to find out so bad, but I didn't want to look at him at all. I felt so fucking awkward it's not even possible. He actually spoke up
"Can you play another song? I don't like this one"
"Ugh fine" Esteban skipped it and a Coldplay song started playing, I felt relieved and I actually was able to look at him now, he just gave me a side eye and took a sip from his bear. He definitely realised.
. . .
I actually fell asleep again after some time the boys got bored of listening to songs and talk about stuff.
What woke me up was the car stopping again, it was already daylight outside.
"Are we home yet?" I asked sleepy
"No, just Esteban" Pierre answered, "but we'll be in Monaco soon"
"Bye Estie" I said
"Bye y/n" He got out of the car and obviously went to take his stuff and Pierre went with him
I tried to wake myself up in the meanwhile, I took my phone to check how bad I actually look and my notifications. I opened the camera to see myself
"Oh fuck" I swore silently when I saw my hair everywhere and my face all swollen from the bad sleep I had, I tried to fix my hair a little but it didn't help
Also I checked my notifications, I had texts from Charlotte there but also from my other friends and family, so I answered them all.
Charlotte
23:36 Text me when you get home! I love u!
That reminds me that I actually need to meet up with her and maybe tell here everything that happened, but not just because he's her ex, but also because she's my best friend and I need to open up to someone. Also he was sleeping right next to me in such a funny position I had to send her. So I responded to her message.
4:03
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4:03 Currently somewhere in France, but we'll be home soon🫠
I wasn't expecting her to be awake so early, so I put my phone down and tried to rest again.
. . .
We arrived in Monaco two hours later, Pierre's gonna stay there this week as well so he travelled with us.
"Do you want me to take you home or will you stay with me for some time?" Pierre actually asked when we entered the state
"Pierre," I sighed and I wanted to tell him we're not a fucking couple so that I won't stay with him, but I changed my mind and tried to not be mean "take me home"
He nodded and five minutes later we stopped by my house.
"Thank you," I said before getting out of the car, but they were both getting out as well, because Leclerc lives really close to me actually.
I took my things out of the truck and Pierre went in to hug me "I'll text you and we can meet up if you want to"
"I'll see you in Australia," well that was a lie, I won't be there "I'm leaving to Italy for a few days with Charlotte so I won't see you" that wasn't a lie, or I don't know, Charlotte doesn't know it yet
"Oh, have fun" He smiled giving me a forehead kiss
"Thank you" I smiled "bye" I pulled away
"Bye" Pierre said "I'll text you"
I just nodded and took my stuff "bye Leclerc"
"Bye" He didn't even bothered to look at me
But no, I won't be at the Australian GP, I decided to take one race off and spend it with Charlotte, without Leclerc, because we were together too much the last few weeks. But it's not just about him of course, I just want to take a break for a few days. Or maybe I am just too scared it will all happen again?
