UNSPOKEN WORDS

Chapter 21

ARGUING WITH AIR

Sometimes I feel like life is very complicated. At least that's how I feel my life is since I don't have a family and I don't have no one. You may say... Cherry, you're dating TOM RIDDLE, yes! I am! But it's not enough. Don't get me wrong I do like him. I like him a lot. But it feels different. Okay! Yes! I am exaggerating since the small argument he and I had. But what can I say I like being dramatic!

I look up at the sky and I notice how the high blue color is turning darker with each second. The air is getting even colder and my stomach is making noises telling me to stand up and walk towards the great hall. I spent the whole day in my spot deep in the forbidden forest near the black lake. I needed some time alone but a small part of me wanted his company. Tom. I wanted him to come and apologize, I wanted him to get on his knees and beg for mercy while my ego grew stronger and I made him weaker. Sadly that didn't happen.

I stood up and walked towards the castle. Alone.
Stranger things happen when you are alone. For example. When I was alone I saw things. Like students having sex in one of the bathrooms, teachers flirting with students, or weird shadows that sometimes looked like my parents. I reached the castle but before I could turn to get inside the great hall Mattheo stopped me.

"He is worried you know," he says after he pulls me inside a broom closet. I pushed his hand off my shoulder and crossed my arms in front of me.
"Who is worried?" I asked
"My brother... where have you been?" Mattheo asked me. So now he cares about Tom and I's relationship? Or it's just that he feels guilty that he had kissed me?
"He didn't look for me," I say in a serious voice
"Of course he didn't... but... he was in an awful mood today, I don't know what happened, but apologize to him," Mattheo says giving me a dark look
"Me?! Apologize to him?!"
"Yes!"
"You don't even know what happened!"
"I know! But I'm the one who is goin' to spend the whole time living with him while we're gone for the break, and I don't want to be hearing his complaints!"
"I won't apologize! He was the one who started everything!"
"What did he do?"

Should I explain to Mattheo that his brother was trying to manipulate me while having sex?
"We were in his room and then he said some stupid things" Mattheo got closer to me
"What things?" I couldn't back up since the wall was already touching my back, so I stood still
"He asked me to promise I wouldn't get close to you... He even said it as if I would cheat on him with... with you" Mattheo got still for a small second. Then he looked into my eyes then a smirk appeared on his mouth, I wanted to slap him.
"Don't do that" I say
"Don't do what?"
"Smirk"
"Why not?"
"It makes me want to slap you"
"Really?" He got closer and got to my level until he was looking directly at my eyes

"You wouldn't cheat on him?" He asked in a low voice. That's when I noticed how close we were. His mouth could have touched mine if I moved slightly. That's why I didn't move a muscle.
"Never," I say convinced. I wouldn't do that to Tom or anyone. It's not who I am. It's not who I want to be. Mattheo chuckled and grabbed me by my waist pulling me closer to him. Our chests were touching and our breathing became heavy.
"That's unfortunate... But ... I appreciate you respecting my brother that much... It makes you look even hotter" he says. His mouth got closer to my neck then he kissed me there. He placed soft long kisses on my neck while he held me close to him. I was fighting the urge not to moan. I felt one of his hands go down my thigh softly caressing it while kissing my neck.

"Don't" I breathed out.
"I'm not doing anything," he says leaving one last kiss on my neck and then pulling away
"I wouldn't do that to my brother" That was the last thing he said before leaving me alone inside the broom closet. I let out a heavy breath and touched my face feeling my hot cheeks.

What just happened?!

I let Mattheo kiss my neck. I mean it's not that bad from the different types of things we could have done here. Right?
Suddenly I don't feel hungry anymore. So after I got out of the broom closet I went to my dorm.
I can still feel Mattheo's lips on my neck. I can still feel his hand on my waist and his smell on my clothes.

Once I reached my dorm I jumped back in surprise when I saw someone sleeping in my bed. I know that figure. It's Tom
Tom is sleeping in my bed. Was he waiting for me?
I walked closer to him and I saw him curled up hugging one of my pillows while his eyes were closed and his breathing steady. He looked peaceful but he also looked tired. I softly move him trying to wake him up. He woke up almost immediately. When he finally focused on me he let out a chuckle.

"Sorry I fell asleep... your bed it's comfy," he says sitting up and looking at me. I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. I feel guilty again. I let Mattheo kiss my neck

Cheater! Cheater! Cheater!

"Umm... I bought you something today" Tom spoke again. He stands up and goes to grab a box from my desk. He handed it to me. I looked at him he looked sleepy, I smiled and opened the present. I wanted to laugh I looked at him again.
"A cactus?" I say letting out a small chuckle. To. Smiled
"You once told me you were awful with plants but you wanted to have a garden.... You said you never watered them so all of your plants always died...I thought you would like to have a cactus since they don't need much care... You don't need to remind yourself to water it every day but when you do, it will make it live. This is the perfect plant for you since you a have horrible memory"

I can't believe Tom remembered that from me. We were on our second date in the muggle world.
"I always wanted to be a chef, have my restaurant, and boss around other people. you know... Being in the kitchen it's something I enjoy. So what about you?" He says looking at me. We were on the beach. It was night but we had a small fire making us warm while we listened to the sound of the waves
"I love gardening... But I'm horrible at it! ... I once tried to grow tulips... I always forgot to water them ....they all died in a matter of 2 days! I felt horrible! ... so I never did it again... but if I had the chance I would have a big garden and I'd take care of it all by myself"
He only laughed and smiled. Then he pulled me into a loving kiss.

I focus back on my reality and I see Tom looking at me waiting for any sort of reaction. I put the small cactus on my nightstand and then I don't waste a second to hug Tom.
Tom hugs me immediately and lets out a shaky breath.
"I'm sorry... for what I did... I shouldn't have mentioned it... I know you wouldn't cheat on me... I know you and I trust you"

My heart shattered. But again. I am selfish. And technically I didn't cheat. Since I never kissed Mattheo back. Mattheo was the one touching me. I didn't do anything.

"It's fine Tom...just please don't doubt me ever again," I say. He was about to reply but I kissed him. He smiled into the kiss and pulled me closer.
"I'll never doubt you, my love," he says then kiss me again this time passionately.

I kiss him back. I couldn't pull back. I couldn't let him go. I can't hurt him. I want him.

More time. I need him more time.