The Diary~ N.H~L.H~A.I Punk

Chapter 43

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Chapter 43

The Diary

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Nyctophilia. Love of darkness or night. Finding relaxation or comfort in darkness.

Surrounded by it, and not a sound. The feeling you get when you dive in the deeps of the ocean and stay for a while. The sound or the laughter of your friends is in a different dimension. Underwater is a different portal that you and yourself just entered. A small smile spread across my lips.

Stillness. Just you. Feeling numb and finally relaxed. Mind just totally erased and finally, I'm feeling peaceful. The breath is leaving my lungs but I am still just fine and no burning in my chest. When you open your eyes and the crystal waters, a blue colour, but in this case just black. Take away the sun, the laughter, the water that surrounds your body and instead just alone in the dark.

But when your actually found your destination, your paradise, that isn't just right is it. Reality just wants you back. So it sucks you right up. Your friends pull you from your dive with great force so you would die under the deeps, but what if you finally found your paradise and maybe that was it? The yank they give you and the deep breath you take when the atmosphere changes and you take that beloved oxygen.

And just like that you're in reality again.

"Hannah. Hannah wake up" a small groan escapes my lips and I don't know what happened. I take a deep breath and I launch forward, taking more serious and deep breaths. "Hey, hey it's ok" I feel like I'm having a panic attack, well I imagine it that how you feel when it's starts.

I feel a worm hand pressing slightly on my shoulder. I look at the beholder and see it was only Imogen. My breathing got normal again. "You ok in there?" she questions me with concern written across her face. I just keep looking, processing. The atmosphere is different. Outside it give a grey colour, darkening everything and with the day like this everything seems dull. My gaze moves around the room and finally land on my knees. Realization just struck me on what happened.

"Hannah" she slowly whispers as if she would wake someone up. See even the day controls your actions. No sound just the grey lighting. Sun under the clouds with no shine, exactly like on what's happing. "Are they ok." I whisper to her back.

The bed slightly shifts under us, as Imogen sits next to me. "Yeah, you blacked out. There're ok though, just some bruises here and there." She replied. Silence took over again. "Hannah" I looked up at her. I saw the look on her face.