Hostages (Book 2)

Chapter 20

And it ends..what day is it? May 1st."

"Aria..your birth is on August 8th."

"Yes Sarah I'm fully aware."

"And the twins wa--"

"Was me and Naomi. The pain started the day I became a little sister but thanks to the Lord and then you and a couple of people I can stop it."

"What do you mean you can end it? Your not thinking of committing sui--"

I instantly shook my head. "No. I recently found out that I still have people who care about me aside from Theodore and Tim and I don't intend on giving then the pain I'm feeling. But I have a way that all little sisters attack the heart of the older ones,showing them we no longer need them around."

She looked at me and I saw emotion in her eyes. "That sounds awful Aria."

"If you heard what she did to me and you didn't have a job whereas your not trying to diagnose people and trying to rid them of the feelings that make them human," I shrugged "you'd agree. And even though this is supposed to be a private session everyone in that kitchen is not only listening but looking at you while doing so. I don't even have to turn around to see it."

She cleared her throat and wrote in her notes. "You said that others care for you and that's why you won't harm yourself. If no one cared ,would you then?"

That was a good question and a question I could relate to. I was going to take my own life before someone or thing told me not too.

"If no one cared--if you thought no one cared about you,would you k--"

"Yes.. Yes I would do everyone a favor and get rid of myself."

Silence over took the atmosphere and I was scared to turn around and see the many reactions and most likely fury. Sarah wrote one last thing down before putting her stuff in her bag and standing up. "That will be all for today,we will pick this back up tomorrow. Please take your antibiotics and eat lots of food."

I forced another smile and helped her to the door. "Of course. Have a nice day,Sarah."

When she left and I closed and relocked the door I had the guts to go in the kitchen and weave through the many still bodies. I got a bottle water from the fridge and closed the door with my foot turning around and stopping when my eyes accidentally looked in Zayn's.

"You knew we were listening and yet you said yes anyway."

"If I remember correctly you said for me to talk to someone,your not supposed to lie."

"Your not supposed to to do alot of things,you could of kept that small answer to yourself save everyone alot."

I scoffed and looked at Naomi. "Your the one to talk. And stop acting like this wasn't what you want to hear,because now you can dope me up own pills again and finally get back to filling my head up with lies." I looked back at Zayn "And I never said I was gonna kill myself. I said if no one cared then I would."

"Is that supposed to make us worry less?"

"I honestly don't know why your worrying at all. MOST OF YOU wanted me hurt in the first place. And if none of you were listening like you shouldn't have been then you wouldn't have heard me."

Zachary moved from the other side of the table, gripped my wrist and walked me to the room. He shut the door with more force than needed and faced me. He sat me on the foot of the bed and took a seat next to me, "Whether someone is intentionally showing they don't care--"

"Zachary,--"

"Or abusing you," he looked at me "never kill yourself. Don't think about it,don't consider it." He held my face in his hands and stroked my cheeks with the pads of his thumbs. "My goal is to be by you and the other way around till I die but if something ever happens and I'm not around never do anything to yourself that can harm you."