My Ideal Guy (Cambridge Academy Series 2)

Chapter 24: Frustration

Kyla's.

Pain is inevitable. There are decisions we make in our life that we will regret later on. We will be indecisive. Reckless. Impulsive. And that will bring us to decisions that will bring us pain and to the ones we love.

And the worst part is, we can't take back what we have already said. We can't undo what we have already done. We can't rewind time and change what has already happened.

So, we will be left by regrets. It will drown us. We will then realize how reckless we are... it's one of the characteristics of being a human.

Nakatulala lamang ako sa hapag habang nagsisimula ng kumain sila Mommy and Daddy. Hindi ko ginagalaw ang kutsara't-tinidor dahil malalim ang iniisip ko ngayon.

I am bothered by the things I've done.

I am bothered by Jake's words.

I am bothered by what I did to Aleign.

I started to question everything I did all of a sudden. I became really impulsive. And then, there I realized... I make decisions out of impulsivity when it comes to him... to Jake.

I worked at the café without deciding properly. All I want is to prove to my Dad that I can be independent. Did I really prove it to him when he doesn't even know I worked there?

And then now... I became impulsive for claiming that I'm Charlie's fiancé. I thought it would help me to forget Jake since Charlie's my ideal guy. But did I really forget him? After everything he said to me, it just made me love him even more.

Stupid heart. Can I trade this with someone else's?

Walang gana kong kinuha ang kutsara't-tinidor. Ramdam ko ang titig sa'kin ni Mommy pero hindi ko iyon pinansin. I started eating slowly until I finished my food. I wiped the side of my lips using the table napkin.

I can feel my Dad's stares so I met his gaze. Ngumiti ng marahan sa'kin si Daddy na ipinagtaka ko. He doesn't usually smile at me and if he does, it means something good happened.

"You know, Kyla. It's okay if you'll have a boyfriend. I understand if you won't tell us first," ngiti niya pa rin na mas lalong nagpakunot sa noo ko.

What's this conversation about? Bakit wala pa man eh kinakabahan na agad ako?

Mom held his hand and smiled at me. "We met your guy Charlie. He's so kind and well-mannered, you chose the right guy, Kyla."

Napa-awang na ng tuluyan ang labi ko at biglang hindi ko alam paano huminga. Teka, paano naabot sa ganito?

I just let them talk while I'm trying to process everything they're telling me.

"We met Charlie's family. They scheduled a meeting for us yesterday and then they told us that you are engage to Charlie," binigyan ulit ako ng ngiti ni Daddy pero nakatutok na lamang ang paningin ko sa mango juice na hindi nabawasan.

What the hell is this?

"We don't know anything about it but Charlie's parents talked to us. Pero ang sabi namin, dahil first year College ka pa, paplanuhin na lamang natin ang kasal after you graduate. Maybe, three years is enough for the both of you to get to know each other more."

I can't believe my Mom's agreeing with this. They have been fooled but this is my fault so why am I complaining now?

I started this mess and now I don't know how to clean it up.

Why do you always make decisions that you'll regret in the end, goddammit!

"He's really a good choice, Kyla. Marrying Charlie means merging our business with them. If that happens---"