My Ideal Guy (Cambridge Academy Series 2)

Chapter 47: Dream

Aleign's.

Some people would find me lucky. Sino bang hindi gustong ma-crush back ng crush nila?

Some people would find me stupid. Sino bang tanga ang irereject ang crush nila?

Yep, only me.

Tanga bang maitatawag kung takot ka lang?

Charlie is worth the risk but I am the problem. I like him so much and I should be celebrating now but my heart feels nervous. Hindi ito tumatalon tulad noon na kapag nabanggit lang ang pangalan ni Charlie, magwawala na ang puso ko. It is now trembling in fear.

I never thought that him liking me will bring me fear. This is not what I expected.

After he confessed those words, hindi ko siya nagawang sagutin. Hindi ko rin siya nagawang iwasan. Hindi ko rin nagawang umamin na gusto ko rin naman siya, matagal na. I literally did nothing. I didn't gave him any response and just awkwardly ran to my car even with my trembling knees.

I left him there… just like that.

From: Charlie

I'm sorry for scaring you, Aleign.

I should've been more careful.

But it's true that I really like you and I don't want to take it away.

And he started to call me all of a sudden. Gosh, can he just let me breathe?

I turned off my phone after that at nag-talukbong ng kumot habang busy makipag-meeting sa sarili ko kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.

Ito na 'yun e.

Gusto niya na 'ko.

Hindi ba ito naman 'yung gusto ko?

Anong nangyayari sa'kin ngayon at tinatanggihan ko siya?

Charlie started to be a student in Cambridge Academy this second semester kaya mas lalong hindi ko siya maiwasan although hindi ko naman plano.

He will just appear out of nowhere and he will ask me to go with him in the café, mall, roadtrip, and anywhere. Hindi niya na rin naman ako kinulit tungkol sa nararamdaman ko at hindi niya na rin ako tinanong tungkol sa confession na binigay niya.

He just became so careful and gentle like he is afraid to make any failures. But I just couldn't take full responsibility for his feelings yet.

I don't even know if it's real…

I don't even know if it's something I should believe…

Last time I checked, he is still engaged with Kyla.

And then, he'll just suddenly confess his feelings to me like their engagement meant nothing?

Maybe for him, it meant nothing but it is a big deal to me. I don't even know if they are still engaged, I never asked Kyla about it. And Charlie never told me anything.

I am always the clueless one.

"Thank you for coming," I accepted the bottle of beer from his hands as he sat across me.

I immediately opened the bottle and drank from it.

Pinanood niya lamang ako at hindi nagsalita.

"Ngayon na lang ulit kita nakita dito," sabi ko. "I've been visiting your café but Alexis always telling me that you're out of town. Out of trip at kung ano-ano pa," I chuckled. "So, I grabbed the chance to talk to you nang nakita kita finally sa café."