My Ideal Guy (Cambridge Academy Series 2)

Chapter 32: Teddy Bear

Aleign's.

I am really looking forward for this day because it's been a long time since Kyla and I hung out together. At isa rin ito sa pinagplanuhan namin bago ako lilipad papuntang States ngayong sembreak. 

Babalik rin naman ako after sembreak dahil tatapusin ko pa ang first year college ko rito sa Pilipinas. I thought… Kyla really wants to hang out with me to really spend time with me… but it seems like that's not the case. 

It seems like history repeated itself when I saw them again together. My pain is still the same, nothing changed. I thought, I'll be able to escape myself from this but it's still haunting me everytime I see them together.

When I saw Charlie today, I don't know what to feel. All I know is that my happiness and excitement suddenly vanished. 

Kung dapat magsasama sila ngayon, bakit pumayag pa si Kyla na mag-bonding kami ngayon? 

Is she really that insensitive to not think about what I'll feel about it?

Nakita ko ang paglawak ng ngiti ni Charlie nang makita niya si Kyla. Hindi niya nga agad ako napansin. I felt an outcast once again. 

Ano ba talaga role ko sa buhay nila? I'm such a nuisance.

I fell silent when he arrived. That is how I deal with my pain. From being silent. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi man lang naramdaman ni Kyla iyon. 

Sinubukan kong kalimutan ang ginawa niya pero ito at binabalik niya ulit ang sakit. And I think… I will never be able to escape from this without acknowledging my pain. 

I can't stop it anymore.

I can't pretend anymore.

I am not okay with this whole scenario.

Nang maiwan kaming dalawa ni Charlie dito ay namayani kaagad ang katahimikan sa'min. He is still looking at Kyla and Jake's direction until they were no longer reached by our sights. 

Nandito ako. Bakit si Kyla pa rin ang tinitingnan niya? 

I swallowed the lump in my throat and got the urge to speak to break the silence between us. "You can just go home. I can handle myself." 

I tried to smile to look normal. Lumingon din naman siya agad sa'kin. 

"Ayoko naman na iwan kita mag-isa. Saka sabi rin ni Kyla na samahan kita." 

I remained the smile on my face kahit puro si Kyla na naman ang iniisip niya. Kung hindi pala sinabi ni Kyla na samahan niya 'ko ay malamang, sinundan niya ang dalawa.

You're so pathetic, Aleign. Kyla really made me feel this. I can't help but to fist my knuckles to release my annoyance.

Enough with understanding her because she never did it to me, anyway. She's so insensitive and I can't believe that I am starting to hate her.

Tuluyan ng humarap sa'kin si Charlie kaya ibinalik ko rin sa normal na ayos ang kamao ko. 

"Nandito na rin naman tayo kaya sumakay na lang din tayo ng rides," he suggested while giving me a warm smile.

I roamed my sight around the surroundings. Puro tilian ang maririnig sa paligid… at buti pa sila nagsasaya samantalang nagluluksa pa rin ang puso ko kahit kasama si Charlie.

Being with him will not really make me happy if he is thinking about another girl.

"Sayang naman ang araw na 'to, Lei. Hayaan na lang muna natin ang dalawa at tayong dalawa na lang muna ang magsama," he offered his hand at me. "Let's go?"