My Ideal Guy (Cambridge Academy Series 2)

Chapter 40: Warmth

Trigger Warning: Abortion and Self-harm

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Kyla's.

I recovered fast from the incident. Well, physically. But, mentally and emotionally, I don't think I can ever forget what happened that night. It was traumatic, it is such a miracle that I survived.

After that night, I realized a lot of things. About my friendship with Aleign. About my future. About my feelings for Jake. About my apology to Charlie. And more importantly, about myself.

Yes, I love Jake but I need to sacrifice my feelings for him first. I need to focus more about myself. Marami pa 'kong dapat tuparin para sa sarili ko. I don't want to be that old Kyla who has an immature mind who only thinks about her happiness.

Kung ang kasiyahan ko ay hindi naman nakakabuti sa'kin, bibitawan ko na lang. It will just lead me to nowhere.

My Dad is right. I hated him before but I learned to understand him now. Ang dahilan kung bakit ganoon siya ka-istrikto pagdating sa mga desisyon ko dahil alam niya kung gaano ako ka-impulsive. I always make decisions without thinking thoroughly.

And I realized that it's not healthy anymore. I am hurting the people around me due to my impulsive actions.

Nasaktan ko na si Aleign. Ganoon din si Charlie. I don't want to continue being blind to the pain I caused them. I find it unfair that I broke their hearts and I'm here, being happy with the feelings I have with Jake. I don't deserve to be happy with him.

Kaya ngayon, nakapag-desisyon na 'ko. Hindi na ulit ako babalik sa café para mag-trabaho. I will achieve my dream as a flight attendant but before I do that, I'll make my father proud first.

"Dad," panimula ko habang nakatayo sa harap ng office desk niya.

"What is it again, Kyla?" he sounded tired.

Maraming papel ang nakakalat sa lamesa niya habang nakaharap siya sa laptop. Sana mapasaya ko siya sa sasabihin ko ngayon.

"I'll work in your real estate."

Natigilan siya kaya nagpatuloy ako.

"You planned it first, right? You wanted me to work in our business during semestral break. Three weeks ang sem break namin, Dad. I'll use those three weeks to work in our real estate."

Tinanggal niya ang kaniyang salamin at nag-angat ng tingin sa'kin, sinusuri kung tama ba ang desisyon na binitawan ko.

I am no longer that girl who likes to shop and stroll around the mall. In just a short span of time, I realized that I need to change my lifestyle.

Pinanliitan ako ng mata ni Daddy. "Are you sure? I'll give you time to think wisely."

Tumango-tango ako. "Yes, Dad. I won't stand here if I'm not sure with my decision."

Can't really stop being sarcastic. Well, I'll just change my lifestyle and not my attitude.

Nangunot ang noo niya. "Why so sudden?"

I struggled to say it at first but decided to continue. "This is the last time I'll be doing something in your favor, Dad. After this, I'll achieve my dream and will take the BS-Tourism course."

He leaned forward while his hands were intertwined. "Is that what you really want?"

I nodded like a kid.

"Well, then. I'm proud of you."

Natigilan ako. Tama ba 'tong naririnig ko?

Pinaikot ni Daddy ang swivel chair niya at nakatalikod siyang kinausap ako.