A Hug Instead of Saying Something (Camren)

Chapter Thirteen

Camila's POV

Did I really make out with Lauren last night or was that a dream it felt like a dream because it didn't seem real. I loved the feeling of kissing her it was like we fit perfectly together afterwards we just sat in silence holding each other. It's been something I wanted for so long of course we have held each other countless times in the past it was different now. I wanted this so bad with her I wanted to be with her I wanted to make her completely mine one day but I was afraid that this was all just something to make Lauren feel better in that moment. I always did things that made Lauren happy despite what I'm feeling because I loved her and I would do absolutely anything for her.

She had had a few glasses of wine and I know that she's an emotional drunk always has been and maybe kissing me just made her feel better about herself. If this was that I don't know if I could handle being so close to her, I already had this looming fear that she would use me just to forget David. I didn't want to be a place holder I wanted her to love me like I loved her most of my life.

I lay in bed with her now she was in my arms she felt so right there, I stared at her sleeping form. I didn't want her to wake up because I had no idea what she was going to say. What if she said that the kiss was a huge mistake, that it was just the wine talking? Fear consumed me how could I not be afraid she was my best friend, if something goes wrong I could lose her forever and the thought alone terrified me. She meant more to me than anybody in this world and losing her in any form would devastate me.

I could easily say this is the most complicated thing I have ever been in, and I went to medical school. We have opened Pandora's Box and I had no idea what would come out of it. It was like playing the lotto where there's like a one in fourteen million chance of winning. Kissing Lauren back last night was a gamble and I had no idea if my numbers were winning. All bets were off the moment Lauren decides to open her eyes.

I sat there for a moment until I felt Lauren burying her head in my chest her arm gripped around me tightly.

She groaned. "My head hurts really badly."

"That's what three very large glasses of wine will do to you?" I said laughing a little.

"Shut up, I blame you you're the one that brought the wine." She said her hand slipping under my shirt and she grazed my skin.

"I warned you didn't I wine gives you the worst hangover."

She just hummed in response tickling my skin with her fingers.

"That tickles." I said.

She peered her beautiful green eyes up at me I could see a smirk in them. "Does it?" She teased.

I could feel chill bumps scattering my skin because her hand started wandering. "Do you know what you're doing?"

"Of course I do, the wine wore off hours ago." She said with a slight chuckle.

I smiled faintly looking at her I couldn't be more in love with someone and I didn't fight the urge when I leaned down placing a kiss right on her lips. Lauren's hand stopped to press firmly on my back to pull me closer to her. Our lips meshed together gracefully there was no clumsiness in our kiss it was like our lips were made for each other. I could feel Lauren pulling me on top of her as we deepened the kiss; our tongues danced together making a heated kiss. You would think we'd be worried about morning breath but Lauren had none, but we really only slept for a few hours and we brushed our teeth before bed so I guess we didn't have time to get morning breath.

We break the kiss because air became a concern and I started placing kisses on Lauren's neck, her labored breathing was riling me up and I could feel her hips moving against me. My hands found her naked thighs and I gripped them while teasing the spot on her neck that's driving her wild, soon erotic sound escape her parted lips. Wanting my lips back she pulled me back to her pressing our lips together again, I could feel that we were getting a little besides ourselves so I decide to stop this.