A Hug Instead of Saying Something (Camren)

Chapter Nineteen

Lauren's POV

Camila and I were going to the dealership today and my sister was coming over to watch the kids who were running around the house yelling. I'm not kidding they were literally running around in a line youngest to oldest yelling. It didn't help that Milo was right behind them howling so it was like we had four kids. It was enough to drive you mad they usually weren't like this but we took them to a candy store in the mall today and this was their sugar high. It would wear off pretty soon and I know they were all going to drop.

I just couldn't help but think how hard it was keeping up with three kids do we really need another one. Then I just looked at them running around with huge smiles on their faces and could definitely see us having more, one more at least.

"Do you think it was a good idea to let them eat all of that candy?" Camila asked as she sat by me on the couch.

"Probably not but I just know we won't be doing it anytime soon." I said watching them run around.

"This will wear out soon they have been going for about thirty minutes." She states.

They were actually slowing down a bit watching the kids should be easy for Taylor when she gets here because they won't have any energy.

"I'm glad that my dad's taking us so we don't get screwed over." Camila said.

"Yeah your dad knows everything about cars, do you have any idea what we're getting?" I asked.

"I was thinking a large SUV." She said.

"Yes, I thought you were going to say van and I just can't see us riding around in a van we're too badass for that." I said smiling at her.

She laughs. "Definitely to badass for a van."

"We don't have to get a car you know, I don't want you to feel that you have to do these things you don't." I said to her.

"Are you saying that because of what Ally said to you the other day?" She asked looking at me intently.

I dropped my gaze from hers. "I don't make as much as you so I don't want you to think I'm using you or anything."

She moves closer to me and puts her hand on my leg. "Can you look at me?" She asked me.

I looked at her.

"I have known you my whole life basically, I have never known you to use or take advantage of anyone. This is something I'm doing for our family I have the money to do it it's not breaking me and there is no way you're using me because I'm the one who offered." She said holding my gaze.

I pursed my lips. "I just feel like all of my life I have leaned on you you're always taking care of me or looking out for me. I just feel like that isn't really returned in a way, you do so much for me but I feel like I don't give you as much. I think about it all the time you're such an amazing person who cares so much but what do you get in return." I said voicing my inner thoughts.

She gives me a smile. "Its great feeling wanted and needed Lauren; I rather give than receive in a sense. I guess that's why I wanted to be a doctor because I would always be needed. I have always loved being that person for you Lauren I owe you so much you were my only friend you made me feel wanted and loved that's something I feel that I can never repay. You feel like you don't do anything for me but you do, people who feel like they aren't doing enough are often doing the most. Don't you get that I'm willing to anything for you without the thought of getting something in return because I am in love with you. You don't get that every day that I get to call you mine makes up for anything that I have done or will possibly do for you in the future. You love me Lauren and that's more than enough trust me."