Mhorfell Academy and The Onyx Blood Disease (Published under PSICOM)

Chapter 41 : Choice

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"Spade ... " I called as I woke up from I think a deep sleep. Ramdam ko ang mga masasakit sa bawat parte ng katawan ko. Halos marinig ko rin ang pagtunog ng mga buto ko sa pag-unti unting pagbangon ko mula sa pagkakahiga. Where am I? What happened to the fight against Herman Morleen?

Dahan-dahan akong umunat nang maabot ko ang headboard ng kinalalagyan kong kama. At nang masiayos ko na ang pagkakaupo ko ay saka doon ko lamang napagmasdan ang kabuuan ng silid na kinaroroonan ko. This place is familiar. Very familiar. The same time. The same bed. The same breeze. The same colors. The same room. 

"You remember this place?" a sudden voice took the silence out of the window wherein the wind keeps on entering while pushing the hanging light pink curtains to different directions. Even in voice, it would be impossible of me to forget that voice. The voice that I last heard before amnesia took every piece of my memory away before. 

Nilingon ko naman siya at iniwanan ang pagtingin sa nakabukas na bintana kung saan bahadyang tanaw ang dagat kahit na ba nakaupo lamang ako. Even if it's a bit awkward and a little strange, I smiled at him. "Yes. Very much. Especially when you told me that you'd accept my request if ever I want you to kill me here in this place." I said as I reminisce about my first time in here. 

"It's amusing that you still remember that remark. But after what happened one month ago? I guess you should forget about that. You think I can kill someone that I have searched for almost eleven years? You think I can kill my own fiancee? You think I can kill someone who lost her memories because of me?" he keeps asking me those questions as he walks towards me from the entrance of the room to the side of my bed. 

Hindi ko matanggal ang tingin ko sa mga mata niya habang hindi rin siya kumukurap habang binibitawan niya ang bawat salita mula sa mga pangungusap na iyon. Ni hanggang sa makalapit na siya. Ni hanggang sa makaupo na siya sa tabi ko. Ni hanggang sa abutin niya ang mga kamay ko gamit ang mga malalaki niyang mga kamay. Hindi namin sinira ang koneksyon ng mga titig namin. Tila ba hindi namin nakita ang isa't isa ng ilang dekada at ngayon lamang kami nagkita matapos ang ilang bagyo at pagdudusa. 

I gulped when he smiled as he caress my hands. He was just looking at my hands. Obviously avoiding my eyes to say something what he needs to say clearly. I can't help but to just look at every direction that I could think of. I'm not used to this kind of atmosphere. For those four years that I have yearned for thrill and excitement, I always wanted to see those two things on the people who I can influence of manipulate through my words and actions. But I never longed for my own self to be in this kind of situation wherein I'm not the one in control on what's happening. 

"Sorry." that's the first word that I heard from Spade. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya humihingi ng tawad sa akin. Siguro kung meron man, para sa akin wala na iyon. Hindi naman siguro kami mapupunta sa ganitong sitwasyon kung wala ang mga bagay na iyon, hindi ba? "If it weren't for me, hindi sana mawawala ang alaala mo. Sana hindi ka naaksidente. You keep on getting in troubles and on a chase from those criminals because of me. I'm very sorry. Kung napagsasalitaan kita noon, kung nakasagutan kita noon, kung nasaktan kita noon, sorry. I know it's very untimely of me to do this dahil nga sinasabi ko lang ito kung kailan nalaman ko na ang lahat tungkol sa'yo pero ... pakiusap pakinggan mo lang ako. I just want to say sorry for everything. Kirsten, I'm really sorry. I'm the one who broke my own promise --" and then, something wet but soft fell on my hands. Wet but warm. Water but brings fire to my insides. I couldn't imagine Spade William Vantress, the leader of ten heads, the heir of Mafia Vantress, and the most silent person I've ever known has tears on his eyes as he apologize to me. The me, who keeps on giving them troubles and danger as well whenever I can't stop my curiosity.