Obsession

The need

Ahsoka and Savage walked into the infirmary and saw Kenobi still unconscious and a Nightsister checking his vitals.
"It's been days and Kenobi still hasn't woken up. What if my brothers presence isn't enough to awaken him." Savage signed looking down at the padawan.
"We must trust in the force, Savage. I'm sure Master Kenobi isn't ready to just give up. I'm sure if he just knew Maul was here he would wake up." Ahsoka looked at the tall Zabrak as they walked over to Obi-wan's bed side. "Speaking of Maul, what is he doing?"
"Training. Before he left to Ringo Vinda brother said Dooku started to teach him how to use the Force and turn it into lighting. I tried helping him not too long ago, but he refused my help. Said I was a distraction." Savage shrugged
"He's feeding off of his hatred for Dooku and Sidious." Ahsoka explained "I wouldn't want to be near someone practicing Force Lighting. I think he wanted you to leave because he knew it was dangerous and that he could hurt you. Practicing Force Lighting I've heard could be more dangerous for the user than the opponent. The Lighting draws from within you, almost like a force push I guess, but it Force is heated up by a strong emotion which is mainly hate. It's why Sith use it and Jedi don't. We try to avoid emotional attachments to things. If we do have an emotional attachment to something, losing it could corrupt us and we would want to hurt who ever took the thing from us." Ahsoka explained
"Kind of like my brother and Kenobi? Why he's training so much." Savage asked
Ahsoka took a second to think about the question. "Well I think Maul is training for many reason like it. I'm sure Maul was taken at young age away from Mother Talzin, and that's the reason why she wants Sidious dead along with the deaths of Nightsisters in battles of them versus Sidious and Dooku's attacks. Maul wants revenge on what Sidious did to him and Mother Talzin and now and I'm just thinking out loud, Maul hates himself for being part of cause that made Master Obi-wan sick." Ahsoka talked on not really knowing what else to talk about. "I think he is punishing himself by practicing how to use the Force Lighting."
Savage hummed not truly knowing how to respond. They watched Obi-wan's nearly still body.
"It is almost meal time, we should go and tell my brother." Savage said and turned his body to the door as a invitation for Ahsoka to come with him.
"Alright let's go." Ahsoka looked at Savage and they both silently left the room almost in hope that they would hear Obi-wan stir in the bed or make some noise to signal his awakening. But they heard nothing and walked quietly to the training yard.
They saw Maul sitting on the edge training field meditating. They saw bandages on his hands signaling that he was practicing the Force Lighting.
"Brother," Savage spoke breaking the silence. "It's almost meal time."
Maul sat there like he didn't hear him. Savage placed a hand on Maul's shoulder.
"Come brother, let us eat and replenish our bodies" Savage looked down at him. Maul stayed silent and simply pushed Savages hand off of him.
"Brother, you've been out here all day. You need to eat." Savage went on
"Maul, Master Obi-wan isn't going to get better with you just meditating out here." Ahsoka said getting a bit frustrated
"Nothing I do will help him, Jedi." Maul hissed softly breaking his mediation. His voice sounded calm under laced with hopeless sadness.
"All I can do is practice and mediate. Hone in my skills and prepare to finish what I started." Maul said trying to return to mediating.
Ahsoka sat down next to him. "Maul, listen, I know you feel like you need to prepare for what is going to happen, but what you need to eat and keep up your strength. What if Master Obi-wan finds out that you've been training yourself to the bone out here?"
"I must be ready for this fight padawan!" Maul growls
"Well, you won't be ready if you don't eat." Ahsoka said and looked at Savage. He picked Maul up and held him tight in the air.
"Now Maul, you are either going to walk to the dining hall with us, or Savage will carry you." Ahsoka said going along with their improvised plan
"Fine." Maul said glaring up at Savage. "Apprentice, place me down."
Savage set Maul down and they began walking and they passed by the infirmary. Maul couldn't help, but stop and look at the building. He used the force to see how Obi-wan was doing, but he didn't get very far when he heard Savage.
"Brother? Are you alright?" Savage walked up to him placing a hand on his shoulder.
Maul pulled his attention back and cleared his throat. "Yes, Savage. I'm fine. Tell the padawan I'll be there to eat soon, I'm going to check up on Kenobi."
"Take as long as you need brother." Savage said squeezing his shoulder a bit comforting him than left to the dining room.
Maul looked back at the infirmary and he walked slowly to the building.
Savage told Ahsoka and she looked back and saw Maul walking into the building. She couldn't help, but feel his inner turmoil. Maul signed seeing Obi-wan just laying there. There was no Nightsister there, she was probably in the dining hall eating. It was was Maul and Obi-wan and Maul's thoughts.
Maul grabbed a chair and dragged to Obi-wan's bedside. He sat down and signed. He wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say.
"Hey there Kenobi, I just thought I'd stop by. Listen I'm not mad at you or Savage. I mean I was but I wasn't thinking right than." Maul growled at himself. "Look at me. You're unconscious and I'm talking to you like you were awake." He looked at Obi-wan and signed leaning against the bed feeling tired from practicing. He yawned sitting straight up. "It's meal time right now, I just came in to check on you." Mauls hand slowly crept to Obi-wan's and he held it. He rubbed the sleeping Jedi's hand with his thumb.
"You Jedi, all of you are so weak." Maul hissed softly "If you weren't so weak this wouldn't of happened." He went silent for a second. "What am I saying? You're able to deal with me, you have to be somewhat strong to be able to do that." He looked up at Kenobi's face and laughed softly.
"I never properly had the chance to see you sleep... You seem peaceful as always, I guess the Jedi are lucky to have you on their side. It would have been easier if we were both on the same side. Don't worry, my love, I have a plan to make you happy. You will be proud when it's all over." He kissed Kenobi's hand softly and looked down. "I can't do this plan without you Kenobi. I'm sorry Kenobi. I did this to you... I never meant to hurt you."
Maul stay quiet holding Obi-wan's hand to his forehead. In the silence, Maul thought about he should do next. How much more time will go by with Obi-wan like this? Did he hurt Obi-wan so badly by leaving him to pursue a plan that could possibly lead to happiness?
Maul signed and stood up to leave. He looked at Obi-wan one last time. He ran a hand down the side of Obi-wan's face. There was a quiet groan that surprised Maul as Obi-wan's head leaned into his hand.
"Kenobi?!" Maul said quietly sitting back down running a thumb over the Jedi's cheek. "Kenobi?" Maul repeated getting only silence. Maul felt like he wanted to cry in sadness. Had he only imagined it? He tightened his grip on Obi-wan's hand. He felt like begging for Obi-wan to just wake up. It had only been a few days, but it felt like months possibly years in Maul's head. He wanted to beg, but begging was for the weak and he wanted to look strong for Obi-wan. His bandaged hands stung from his tight grip.
He laid his head down on his arm on the bed feeling completely exhausted. He loosen his grip on the hand, but didn't let go. He stayed like that not caring who came in and saw. He was among family, but he didn't feel like he was home. Not without Kenobi being awake and healthy. He drifted into his thoughts until sleep finally took him over.