Beyond the Unplanned Love

Chapter 44: I give up

Author's Note:

Happy Happy Birthday, Kiefer Ravena and Thomas Torres! :-) Thank you for being an inspiration to me. Hindi ko alam kung meant to be talaga na magkasabay kayo ng birthday eh. Hehe. :-) I hope you will continue to be an inspiration, and be a good example. More birthdays and more blessings to come. <3

"D-LS-U, Animo La Salle! Go Ateneo, One Big Fight!"

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Alex's POV

I don’t know if staying with them was a wise move. Naguguluhan nalang siguro ako. maybe I just miss those times when things aren’t awkward as it was right now. I miss my bestfriend, I miss my ninja. :(

I distanced myself from them. Dun nalang ako umupo sa may sofa near Dani’s place and they sat on the bed next to Dani on the other side.

I got my cellphone in my bag and plugged my earphones. Minutes later, I saw Denise went out of the room.

Bigla akong napatingin sa pwesto nila Kiefer, and his eyes and mine met. I chose to break the stare. 

He started to walk and sat beside me. “Thank you.” He looked me at the eyes. “You know, for not leaving. And sa pagpunta dito.”

“You know I never wanted to leave.” I responded. He looked lost at what I have said. “Sana ganun na lang lahat ng tao no? hindi basta basta nangiiwan sa ere.” I added.

“What do you mean?” He eyed me.

“What do I mean? What do you think, Kiefer? What do I exactly mean on what I said? “ I said emphasizing all the words.

“Is this about me and Denise again?”

“Again? Hindi naman nawala yang issue na yan eh.” I chuckled.

“Come on, Alex.  Ilang beses ko bang sasabihin sayo na wala nga kaming relasyon ni Denise? Paulit-ulit nalang tayo eh.”

“Wala kayong relasyon pero siya yung kasama mo sa Athlete’s Night. Wala kayong relasyon pero lagi kayong magkasama at nagpupunta ka palagi sa bahay nila. Wow. Alam mo, kung inamin mo nalang in the first place, eh di tapos na ‘tong usapan na to.” My voice shakes but I need to be strong.

“Ano ba gusto mong marinig? Na mahal ko si Denise? Oo, mahal ko si Denise. Ayan masaya ka na?” He raised his tone. I kept silent, I wanted to say something but I know doing it will just make me cry. I wanted to talk, but there were no words coming from my mouth.

“Alam mong mahal niya si Fortuna, I love her because she’s the friend I never had. But no one else comes close on how much I love you, Alex. Intindihin mo naman yung sitwasyon.” Si Kiefer.

“Intindihin?  Eh ako ba naisip niyong intindihin. Oh come on!” I gave a sarcastic grin. “Ikaw kaya sa lugar ko? Ng malaman mo kung hanggang saan ko pinilit umintindi.

Tatanggapin ko naman eh. Tatanggapin ko kung sasabihin mo sa’kin na gusto mo na si Denise, tatanggapin ko kung sasabihin mo sa’kin na hindi mo na ako mahal. Tatanggapin ko kung sasabihin mong pagod ka na. tatanggapin ko yun lahat.” My visions became blurry and I didn’t know I was crying.

“Hindi pa tayo tapos sa issue kay Trish, tapos biglang kay Denise naman? May narinig ka ba na complain sakin? Na kahit hindi natutuloy yung date natin kasi kelangan mong puntahan si Denise, kasi nga di ba wala si Captain. AND. YOU. NEED. TO. FILL. IN. THE SPACE. Wala di ba? So don’t you dare tell me na hindi ako makaintindi. Kasi lahat ng paraang pag-iintindi ginawa ko, wag lang akong masaktan. Wag lang tayo masira.” I stood up and turned my back at him. I wanted to leave at that moment.