For Better or Worse? // adopted by 5sos

Chapter 52

~Megan's POV~

After my long walk, I finally found a cheap place to stay. It wasn't that bad, a motel room for only like $30. I mean it's kinda far from town, but that's good because it means farther away from the guys.

Once I got my room, I threw my bag on the floor and went to the bathroom. I took a quick shower and changed into some pajamas, then brushed my teeth. After all of that was done I went on twitter. I need to make sure the boys can't contact me. I went through and unfollowed them on everything. I don't care if they follow me, they still can't message me.

Now go for the phone numbers.

The voice in my head kept repeating. Do I really want to? What if there's an emergency? They don't need you, and you don't need them.

I was about to click block, when I started getting a call.

Ash Xx

Accept or Decline

I clicked he decline button, but couldn't bring myself to block them. Am I really giving everything I have up? Yes. The answer is yes.

I mean I love the guys, that's why I have to do this. It will be better for them. Their fans won't be mad at them, they can be their dorky selves without having to make sure to stay sober for a child, or making something child appropriate. 

It's for the better.

The guys will be silently thanking me. I'm sure all's well with them. I'm sure things are looking up. Life's getting better. They can be themselves!

Their probably partying right now.

They never wanted you, it was just for publicity.

The voice wouldn't leave!

I plopped down onto my bed and played some music quietly so I could just sleep.

That's all I need, sleep.

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Hey, to the few of you who actually read this. I might not update for a while. I have been having some, let's say problems. A lot of them, and they are getting overwhelming. If you follow me on Instagram ( @5sos_feels1 ) you will know why. I posted a picture about it explaining everything, plus something's happened today to make it 10 times worse. I really, really love both of these accounts and I'm not giving up on them. I just need a bit of a break, I might still be reading stuff on here, but I won't be posting anything until things clear up. Again, I'm just having some problems (I mean I have always had tons but now its changing) just between things at school, things people say to me or behind my back, 'friends', family, and the most destructive part my mind. If you want to know more it goes into further detail on my most recent post on Instagram, but there are somethings that happened today that aren't on there. I'm sorry to have to give this up for a bit because writing this normally helps me, but lately it hasn't. I have been having this problem for a long time but I wanted to deny it but I can't any more. Thanks for the support from the few of you who read this. Just a reminder, stay strong, you are loved.💕