Montereal Bastards 3: To Chase A Playboy (COMPLETED) #WATTYS2017

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Ruzz

I know I should have steeled myself and prepared for whatever will happen that day. But deep inside, there is an unquenchable fire, a hope that always boosts me to believe that she will emerge victorious from her fight with death.

Kasi malakas siyang babae. Siya ang pinakamalakas na babae na nakilala ko sa buong buhay ko at hindi ako naniniwala na kaya siyang kunin sa amin dahil lang sa sakit.

We continued our vigil outside the room at hindi nagtagal ay dumating din si Skye. One look at our faces and she crumbled crying on the floor. Mabuti na lang at kasama niya si Ashton nung mga panahong iyon at may umalalay sa kanya because we can't. We are all so wrought up with our pain that we can never seek to comfort others.

Hindi na ako ngayon sigurado kung ilang minuto na kaming naghihintay sa labas.

Basta matagal. Sobrang matagal.

The doctor, when he went out and closed the room behind him looked grim-faced and resigned. I never thought doctor's faces could be so easily read, but this one is. When he opened his mouth, I wanted to punch him to stop the words but it continued anyway.

I watched as the words went out of his mouth but was actually fascinated that I never heard any of it.

Atleast, walang pumasok sa isip ko.

But Tita Milicent fainted right away na mabuti na lang at nasalo ulit ni Zed while Skye shrieked and cried harder until she have to be sedated.

I was just looking at them curiously, an almost comical expression on my face.

Hindi ko alam kung anong sinabi ng doctor. Hindi ko narinig. Hindi ko pinakinggan.

Ayokong pakinggan.

He swept his eyes round about and stopped in my direction. And then he was walking towards me.

I didn't want him to come near me. I started backing away from him but he kept going. Kept coming closer. Until there is only a good one foot apart that separated us, enough for me to hear what he is about to say.

Nilapitan niya ako dahil nakita niya siguro na ako lang ang hindi nagwawala. Na ako lang ang kalmado. Dapat hindi niya ginawa yun. Dapat hindi. I still tried to block his voice pero naririnig ko pa rin yung ibang sinasabi niya.

"...she suffered a severe brain damage... ..lack of oxygen.... didn't accept the heart transplant... we did our best.. time of death is 12:51 AM.. September 4th 2016."

Death.

Death..

Death..

That was the only word that held meaning. That is the only word that my mind retained after all the talk.

I tried shutting it but it persisted.

Death.

I can feel something coming up my throat, and from a great distance, the most primitive, painful bellow resounded throughout the whole establishment. It almost sound like a wounded animal.

And distantly, I realized that the sound was coming from me. Deep inside me. A call of despair, of hopelessness, of too much pain.

Parang nanonood ako ng pelikula dahil pakiramdam ko ay ibang tao ang may hawak ng katawan ko ng mga sandaling iyon.

Itinulak ko ang doctor paalis sa kinatatayuan niya para mapuntahan ko si Dee. Kasi hindi siya patay! She needs me. Baka hinahanap na ako nun. At sa dami ng tubo na isinaksak sa katawan niya, baka hirap yun na tumayo.