Today was a pretty normal day. My normal school days consist of bullying from the populars, stress from homework, anxiety from classmates, and abuse from dad. That is what I call normal, and today met all of those standards. One of these days I am probably going to just say fuck it all and either run away or just kill myself.......probably just kill myself, I already cut my arms and thighs.
Now it is the 3rd week of my Freshman year at Celina High School and I am doing pretty good, German is going well, so is Marching Band, English, Algebra, and History. However, the one thing that isn't doing so good is Concert Choir. I was in choir in 5th and 6th grade, but not middle school so I am not quite as good as the others but the teacher says I am an amazing singer if only everyone else thought so too, choir is when I get bullied most of the time at school.
Now with the bullying situation, I basically just get called names but sometimes I get pushed down. I get called things like an insecure little bitch, cunt, slut, whore, and more, the one thing I don't understand is why they call me a whore and slut, I have never even had a boyfriend, let alone got fucked or fucked anyone.
Anyways, whatever, the reason I have never had a boyfriend is because of my dad. When I was little he was just overprotective but now......he is just an ass hole. He yells at me for stupid stuff like forgetting something or "ignoring" him (I really just hide in my room so I don't get yelled at). Some would say it's fine but this has happened every day, for the past 2 years, and with my school situation, I don't need my own family pointing out my flaws and screw ups.
Well, that's all for today, I have to go or else dad is going to make my day a living hell like always. See ya, I will be back tomorrow.
So.....how am I doing so far, I am going to just take this slow.....it will come together in the end, I promise.
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