Jason's POV:
I pulled into my driveway and flicked out the cigarette that I just finished smoking. I felt ashamed in myself that I hadn't realized just how much I had been hurting Justin. I had been gone for a while now, I had to make a few stops on the way for food. I had been thinking a lot about Justin and my feelings towards him. I really want to do everything I can to make it up to him. He does deserve a lot better than he has and he hasn't deserved to have me as a thorn in his sides the past few years. I opened my car door and collected a few bags that I had gotten whilst I was out. I shut the door using my leg and walked up to my front door and entering my house. I walked to the kitchen and unpacked a few bags of groceries that I had shopped for before deciding to snack on a bag of sour patch kids. What? They are tasty as fuck. Don't judge.
I temporarily forgot that Justin was currently upstairs in my room and had been all morning. I paced quickly towards my room, stopping once I reached my door. I felt like I should have knocked to let him know that I was back, but at the same time it was my house and my bedroom. I slowly gripped onto the handle of the door and turned it and pushing the door slightly to reveal a small crack into my room. I peeped inside quickly but couldn't make out anything so I just opened the door wide. Immediately I noticed Justin on sitting against my bed. He shot his head up in my direction and looked like a deer caught in headlights. I sent him a confused look as I took a step closer to him. I don't know why he was looking at me like he was. I looked him up and down trying to see what he was hiding.
My eyes became fixated on his arm. I don't how I didn't notice it quicker. I took another few steps closer towards him as tears started to build up in my eyes. Justin had a towel sloppily wrapped around his arm and the part that made my heart shoot in pain was that there was blood covering it. I moved so that I was now crouched beside him and placed my left arm on his shoulder. Justin flinched at my movement and looked away as soon as I looked him in the eyes. He didn't even try to fight it and simply held his arm straight out in front of me. I carefully and gently unwrapped the towel from his arm, trying to prepare myself for what I was about to see. Immediately I noticed the cuts. Tears began to fall freely from my eyes, as I could no longer hold them in. I blinked a few times to try to free my eyes up, but instead felt a steady flow of tears fall down my cheeks. I tried to focus on Justin as I knew he needed a friend more than ever right now.
I looked back to his arm and counted nine cuts. Blood was still oozing out of them and they were all looked as though they were quite deep. I knew that he did not have these this morning which meant he waited until I left to do this to himself. My heart broke and I couldn't control my emotions anymore, instead I gave into them.
I cried.
I pulled Justin in for a hug, being sure to not harm him in the process. I felt his body under me flinch a little and try to resist my embrace at first, but after a few moments I think he realized I wasn't going to hurt him. I didn't care if his blood went onto me, I didn't care that I was crying, I didn't care about myself, in actual fact, all I could care about in the moment was Justin and letting him know that I am here for him. I felt his body tremble a little under mine for what I believed was sobbing.
In that moment there was no words spoken. No words had to be spoken. I knew exactly what Justin was thinking and I am sure that Justin knew exactly what I was thinking. The room felt tense, but not in a way of anger. We sat there embraced in a hug for a fair while. I began to stroke a hand soothingly over his back and up through his hair. His body was shaking still and I could tell that he was not okay. I felt wetness against my stomach and I knew that the blood from his cuts has seeped into my shirt. I ignored this and placed a kiss on top of Justin's head.
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Don't Break Me
FanfictionJustin is broken. At only 17, he is a shell of what he use to be. He gets abused, insulted, laughed at, stared at, and judged daily. Even where he is meant to feel safe he can't escape his insecurities and fears. All this caused by one 19 year old b...