Secret Desire

Chapter Twenty Eight- "Be Mine Again."

Chapter Twenty Eight

"Be Mine Again."

            I woke up suddenly to a loud thud crashing into my room. I didn’t know what was going on until I gasped when Justin was standing up from the floor. My window must have been unlocked and I cursed myself for leaving it like that in the first place. What the hell was he doing here? I suppose it’s because he heard about my date with Brett tomorrow and maybe he wanted to come over here to stop it but he wasn’t going to. There was nothing he could say that would make me change my mind.

            “Hiiii beautifullllll.” The words that came out of his mouth were slurred and that’s when I caught on that he’d been drinking.

            “You need to leave.” I said quietly. “You’re drunk.”

            “Bella Bella Bella…” He tried to stand up but he stumbled clumsily to the ground, making me wrap my arm around his hand so he wouldn’t wake my mom up. He was completely and utterly wasted.

            “I love youuuu.” He trailed off, making this tiny place in my heart that I have tried to avoid for the past week start to flutter again at his words. I couldn’t fall for it again though because I know that he’s saying this because he’s under the influence.

            “You aren’t thinking straight. You need to go home.”

            “I am homeee.” He laughed and fell onto my bed. “Home is right here with you. With my baby… Bella.”

            Snuggling his face into my pillow, he inhaled deeply and I couldn’t help but let a tear fall down my cheek. I can’t deal with this right now. This isn’t fair to me. Does he think playing these mind games are going to get me to go back with him? Because they won’t.

            “Please don’t say stuff like that.” I whispered. “You know just as well as I do that you aren’t meaning it.”

            Inching for me to come closer, his breath hit my face, smelling of nothing but cold hard whiskey. He was sweating and his eyes were glazed over from being so wasted. It was an extremely sad thing to see.

            “I do mean itttt.” He trailed off. “I love you baby. I love you I love you I love you and I don’t care who knows it. I LOVE YOU BELLA!”

            “Justin shut up!”

            I covered his mouth with my hand and started to drag him towards the window. I wasn’t going to let him roam the streets when he was wasted because lord knows what he would get into so I decided against the window and pulled him towards the door instead.

            “Do not talk when we are out here.” I warned. “I’m taking you someplace where you can sober up.”

            “Can you kiss meeee?” He chuckled in my ear and started to plant kisses down my neck, making my stomach drop just at the contact. I pulled away and shook my head no, which made him stop in his tracks.

            “I will start to yell again if you don’tttt.” He said. “C’mon baby. Come hereee.”

            His hands gripped my waist and pulled me closer to him but I couldn’t help but start to cry. All I wanted to do was cry. This was how I wanted him to feel but he doesn’t. I wanted this to be him all the time and I wanted to push the words he said away but I couldn’t.