Persona

CHAPTER XXV pt.2 : 25°c

"What are you doing here?"

I looked up to him meeting his eyes.

"I uh-" Come up with something EunByeol "I had no where to go so I just stopped by to drop you off some hot choco and cakes"

He opened the lights and went inside the room to check what I've brought "then why do you seem to have 2 servings of each?"

"I uh I just thought that maybe your NaNa was here so Yeah! I brought that for her"

Do I have to say it at the most awkward way possible?

"Yeah, but you just said you had nowhere to go" He smirked "just be honest with me" He leaned on the table

Is it just me or did the weather seem to be warmer?

"Fine! You caught me red handed" I gave up and closed the door "where did you go?"

"I went to walk around the building since I don't want to spend Christmas eve in here" He got the hot chocos and gave me one while sitting beside me

I mouthed a thank you before sipping the choco.
It tastes so delish

"So, how are you?" He asked while looking at me

I choked. It's been a while since somebody asked me how I was...
It's weird...
Especially coming from my patient

"I'm fine" Even though I wanted to let it all out on you Jimin..

"I know you're not" He set down his choco while turning to face me "I told you be honest with me"

"And how can you say that I am not?" I mirrored his actions so now we're facing each other

"Because I can see it in your eyes EunByeol"

My heart stopped beating for a second.

Is this real? Why do I feel so.... Relieved?

"You and your wrong assumptions" I shrugged him off while laughing a bit.

Why can't I let it all out now that I have the chance...

Dammit EunByeol

"Don't lie to me" He scooted close to me "even your laugh doesn't sound ok"

How did he know? I always get away with my lies...
Why can't it pass through him?

"What's wrong EunByeol?" He was anticipating "just tell me everything. I'm willing to listen" He pulled a slight smile while holding my hand, caressing it every now and then

I don't know why but tears finally fell from my eyes....my heart seemed to have finally cry out the pain that I went through

It felt so relieving....

"Everything Jimin.... Everything is wrong"

I didn't care less about how pathetic I look right now in front of him.

"I'm so tired. Tired of pretending Im ok, that I don't feel pain, that I am happy" I couldn't look at him. I'm scared to see his reactions.... "I want to feel happiness again...to feel love again.... I really want to feel those things.... Before I completely forget..."

He might be laughing or disgusted....like everyone else before....

I kept on bawling my eyes more then I suddenly felt my head lifted by him making me close my eyes tightly

"Look at me EunByeol..." His voice was so calm and comforting and with that our eyes met

"You don't need to do those things when you're with me. You can always let it out to me anytime" He smiled at me "I understand your pain, I know it more than anyone so just, lean on me. I'm always here for you ok?" He hugged me making me cry more

"Jimin-ah! Don't do this. My pride is crushed right now! I'm your doctor. I should be the one comforting you!" I hit his back while crying more loudly

"파부~ You're still human. Even though you're a psychiatrist that doesn't mean you don't go through emotional breakdowns"

And that hit me right on the spot. He's right.... I'm still human....

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"But, what really happened tonight?" He was really curious, I can tell by the way he was impatiently waiting for my story

We somehow ended up at the garden of the ward

"Well, I originally had plans for tonight but, things went downhill" I sighed. Feeling guilty about the way I acted towards JungKook earlier

"With a man?" He asked then I nodded.
He suddenly bowed his head, holding it tightly while furrowing his eyebrows very hard

"Jimin you fine?" I scooted close to him making him suddenly snap his head towards me while smiling

"Yep. So, that's why you ended up here?" He brushed his hair; regaining his posture

"Not really, I just somehow ended up here since I was walking aimlessly" I looked at him caughting him looking at me " But, I don't regret it tho"

This night, this Christmas turned out to be wonderful.

Jimin seemed to know the right words to say to me,
he can look through me,
he seemed to know about my lies,
he seemed to see the pain and burden on my shoulders,
and he seemed to have listened to each of my words very intently....

He made me warm in this 25°c night just by his words...

It's weird. I heard the things I wanted from him.
I felt the comfort that I was looking for from him.
I finally let out the things I've been dying to tell someone to him

After a long time I felt secured, relieved, and loved... Even just for a slight moment and its all because of him

Is it him? Is it Jimin? The person that I was waiting for these years?

"Say EunByeol I have a promise to you" His voice suddenly entered my senses making me realize that I was staring at him this entire time "consider this as my Christmas present for you"

"And that is?"

"I promise you. You'll feel happiness, true happiness again. You'll feel loved like you never did again. You'll have someone who is always be there for you no matter what happens again. "
He looked directly in my eyes making me see mixed emotions but, sincerity takes most of his beautiful orbs

"But, promise me one thing EunByeol...."

My heart stopped "and that is?"

"Promise me that you'll wait?" His eyes suddenly changed....

My heart was beating fast...
My mind is confused but his promise.....
I wanted to hold on to it....
But, I have no idea how that can happen....
Love and happiness isn't something you can buy just anywhere...

But, I'm desperate..
Even if there were no assurance about his promise...

"I promise"

I still gambled..

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I deadass felt like crying while writing this...

With my ballad playlist everything is just ON THE MOOD

-Luna❣