Persona

CHAPTER XXXVIII pt. 2: You're 38 years old

"How are you?" He smiled widely

I can't believe my eyes

I never imagined seeing him like this so closely ever again...

The hatred that I felt immediately went away from me..

"I know I'm very shameless right now EunByeol.. I know I shouldn't even face you right now. I know I have no right to show again in front of you. But, I always wanted to tell you how sorry I am.... You know I never meant to do that....

You know how much I loved your mother...
Ever since I got discharged.. I went looking for you. I went back to the hospital everyday hoping that you'll show up one day. But, now that you're actually here. I just realized how pathetic I am.."

I known dad for being strong, never had I seen him with tears in his eyes but, now seeing him so broken, sad and regretful...

It made me think that even the strongest person you know can still breakdown..

"Appa... It's ok now. I know mom already forgiven you now." I still felt pain in my heart but, I knew for sure that this is what mom wants. For us, to be ok and to leave everything behind of us.

Mom, I hope you're happy and peaceful now

"No, I really don't deserve to be forgiven. After what I did, I don't deserve anything from now on. I need to pay for it my whole li-"

"Appa.." I went to him and hugged him " I know it's not you who did it. I know you never meant to do that. I know how much you regret it and I forgive you know, mom forgives you too. So, please don't be hard on yourself from now on" My tears started to stain on his shirt

"Oh star. I missed you so much. I'm so sorry that I left you all alone by yourself. I'm sorry you needed to face everything by yourself. It must have been so hard. I won't leave you now, I'm here now star."

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"So, you're telling me that you had a brain tumor?" My ears couldn't believe what I just heard

"Yes, and when I undergone a surgery to get it removed, that's when I started to become ok until now, I'm fully recovered" He flashed his signature smile, the smile I always saw on his face before

"What was the cause of your tumor?"

"The trauma I had before. It was also the source of my disorder so, I really needed to get it removed. It was risky but, it's worth it seeing how I'm fine now"

Jimin suddenly came to my mind

What if he had those too? What if that's also his case?...

I shook my head to remove the negative thoughts that were starting to occupy my mind

"So, what do you do for a living now? Are you already married? DO I HAVE GRANDCHILDREN NOW?!" He had his hands covering his mouth, acting surprised

I laughed at his look and shook my head "I'm a psychiatrist, I work at Busan ward"

"You seemed to have chosen that career because of me" He had a sad smile on which made me guilty

"That's true Appa. But, I thank you because I actually love my job now" I threw myself at him and hugged him tight again

I was able to smell his scent again..
I was able to feel the warmth again..
The love... It feels wonderful...

"You're old now Appa. You're already 38 years old!"

I teased him and his face dropped making me laugh

"I'm still handsome! And you can't deny that" He laughed along too

How I missed this...
And this time I know it won't end that easily

My past was far behind us now
The burden on my shoulder was lifted

And I finally felt it again..

Pure euphoria

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So, this is really coming to an end now

Thank you all for the reads~~~~

-Luna❣