Persona

CHAPTER XLI: 41st spoonful

"Is it wrong tho?.." I nibbled on my bottom lip, weary about HaeNa's answer after hearing my confession about my feelings about Jimin

"It's ok if you have feelings for him. It's just Jimin isn't.. Well, he isn't 'ok'. He has some issues and I think it isn't right from that view"

She makes a clear point there...

"But, I'll make him ok. He also said that he feels better now."

EunByeol you're having your hopes high again..

"Maybe he feels emotionally better not mentally. You know what I mean." She stood up and went to the door

"I'm not telling you to stop. Just be careful, because in the end it's you who will face a hard time because of that."

And with that she closed the door behind her.

I frustrating started to roll across my bed.

It doesn't make any sense

Why do I have feelings for him?
Why and how did I develop them?

Maybe it's because of the comfort he brings to me?
Maybe because of last Christmas?

"AHHH I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE!" I buried my face on my pillow while frustratingly kicking and punching my mattress

What if he have feelings for me?
What if he likes me too?
Is it ok if he engage in a relationship?

I slapped myself just to stop the surreal thoughts that were flowing in my mind

But, my heart didn't lie. It beats faster and I feel fluttery

Get a hold of yourself EunByeol
Please..

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"Jimin-ah, please eat slower. You're going to choke at this state." I heard the nurse's voice

"Bhat aym sho hangri an dish ish shoooo gud!"

I chuckled at the sound of Jimin's voice speaking with his mouth full

And my heart rate went high after hearing his voice again...

I went in seeing Jimin taking what seems like his 41st spoonful of the Kimchi fried rice.

I was surprised to see how many food was scattered throughout the room

"Oh Ms. Lee you're here" The nurse stood up and bowed "then, I'll be taking my leave here"

"Thank you" I bowed back at her and after she went out I quickly sat in front of Jimin with an amuzed expression

"What?" He mumbled while having a mouthful; making him look like a chipmunk

"You ate all of this?" I was in awe at the sight of the empty bowls of food.

This is very... Alarming

He nodded while slurping some cola

I went closer to this face and scanned his eyes and saw his real eyes...