Persona

CHAPTER XL: 40 Seconds

I'm here infront of room 5-L.

Feeling mixed emotions at the thought of seeing him again

What if he feels more depressed?
What if I made it worse?

Overthinking took over me
Feeling worried,guilty and sad

But there's another feeling that's inside me right now..

I miss him....

I opened the door revealing a dim and empty room

He's not here

I went inside to check his bathroom.
And he wasn't there either.

I was about to leave when I had a glimpse of his bed with a bright yellow thing on it

I went closer and saw a note saying:

"Meet me at the garden Doc-Byeol... I have something to tell you.."

I kept on staring at it for like 40 seconds.
Because my heart raced for some unknown reason

Why am I being like this?
This isn't being worried...
It's something I felt before....

What is this..?

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(Listen to <The Truth Untold> by BTS. Either the Korean or the English ver. by Ysabelle)

I saw his figure, facing the sea view.
The sunset was adding more to the beautiful scene...

I remembered what JungKook said..

Jimin is really like the sun...

It lightens up the world but, it also sets; resting at lighting one part of the world.

"Jimin?" I called out as I reached him; sitting down beside him

He scooted further away from me making me confused

"EunByeol... I really have no confidence at facing you right now. I'm ugly. I'm a monster but, still I want to tell you that I'm sorry..." He faced the other side, turning his back on me

"Sorry for making things difficult for you, sorry for making you go through so many things because of me. Sorry for making you stay up all-night and making you worry 24/7 about me... Sorry for having to deal with someone like me..."

"There's no need to-"

"But, EunByeol. Even though I'm like this, I still want you by my side, I want you to take care of me. Even if I don't want to show you a run-down part of me, I still want you. For you I'll pretend to be happy, pretend to smile and pretend that everything is alright. But, that doesn't mean that what I feel is fake.

Even if I can't show you who I really am, can't give you all of me, and even if I hide my true self. I still want you, need you..."

What's this...?
Why am I feeling this...?

"That's why I'm so thankful for you EunByeol. Thankful for every little thing you do for me. For the sacrifices, for the love and for the devotion you put on making me better. Thank you for actually making me feel better..."

He faced me with tears running down his face.. Reflecting my own state

"You don't need to thank me for anything Jimin. It's my job" I smiled at him despite the quivering of my lips

"Don't smile at me EunByeol, don't call my name... I don't deserve those things"

"You deserve every single thing in the world Jimin. You don't need to hide or to conceal who you really am because I'll accept you, I'll accept every part of you despite it being bad or terrible. I'll accept you for who you really are. You don't need to pretend in front of me"

"But, I'm scared EunByeol... I'm scared that once you saw who I really am, you'll go and leave me... I'm scared that once I take off my mask, you'll go running away from me like every one else..." He held my cheek, wiping my tears

"And I can't afford that EunByeol. I don't want to be alone again. I don't want to feel the cold again, I can't take it anymore. My world is starting to crumble down.."

His words, his eyes, his face....
It all speaks the same thing....

That he wants me to stay...

"I never had the thought of leaving you. I never thought of running away from you. I'm here for you no matter what and I hold on to my words. I'll do that regardless of what might happen. I'll never leave you..."

He leaned his forehead against mine

"Thank you EunByeol.... Thank you so much...."

My heart can't seem to calm down.
But, it made me realize that this is the same thing I felt when I first saw JungKook...

The sun has already set.
The purple sky was reflected by the sea making the moment more breathtaking...

It's clear to me now..

That I like Park Jimin....

Despite his other personalities...

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Fun fact about me:

I love The Truth Untold so much.
I relate to it so damn hard that I cried countless times while listening to it.

I made it as my personal anthem ☺

It made me feel inspired everytime I listen to the song

And this chapter was inspired by that song.

Hope you guys like it~

-Luna❣