Again, painted by me. I didn't even plan it necessarily? It just...happened. I showed this to a couple people and holy shit 2 of them nearly cried. Soon I'll make myself cry and make it three, rip.
And as I write all this, I'm listening to one of the many playlist I've created one Spotify. It's called 'songs that reminded me of you' by me, 'danerdyowl' because I was a freshmen when I made the account...feel free to roast me. I love making playlists.
And I wonder
who has the
luxury
of sitting next to you
now
-the empty seat next to me
I created a playlist
of songs
that remind me of you
it closes the distance
between us a bit
and I pretend
that you're listening to the same song
as me
at the same time
and maybe
we're both smiling
and whispering
'I love you to the moon and back'
-one day we'll dance together
I can't help but feel as if stuck in a never ending loop; both heaven and hell.
I am happy
the smile comes easy
a laugh escapes like a breath
unconcealed and free
there you are
hand holding mine
and everything feels
just
right.
I am numb
blinded by a haze
that blends weeks into one
uneventful day
it's a blur
even with my glasses
and everything feels
so
uninteresting.
I am crashing.
like a house of glass
shattering into
a million different pieces
an ocean of emotion I didn't know
I held back
and finally
the flood gates open
and I don't know
if they'll close
and everything feels
so
painful.
I can't help but feel as if stuck in a never ending loop; both heaven and hell.
-I wonder if there's a loophole
"how can you like him...when you barely talk to him"
one-I don't like him
I love him.
Second-because he makes me a better person
made my life better
I was kinder, happier
blanketed in wonder and safety
third-I cannot imagine being without him
simple as that.
who was I before us?
how did I enjoy life before I knew him?
fourth-how can you love the stars
if you've never held them?
hmm?
fifth-never question my love for him.
he is my world
my moon
sun
and stars.
and he is worth It.
-always
And of course,
I love you
To the moon and back💜💜💜
Body Gold by Oh Wonder
Never Enough by Loren Allred
Born To Be Yours by Imagine Dragons, Kygo
Bachata En Fukuoka by Juan Luis Guerra (yes, again, but oh my god I love this song ok?)
X by Nicky Jam, J Balvin (this is a bop)
7 Rings by Ariana Grande (YES QUEEEN)
