I drew that yesterday so uh...yeah. I'm trying to get back into drawing again💜
Sthefanny and I
became like sisters during camp.
she would come to me about her frustrations
rant for a while and then ask for advice.
I would always be there to listen
and loved dancing with her.
we did nearly everything together.
after a night of worship, she embraced me tightly
as i told her how i couldn't count how many times
I had cried in worship that day.
she gave me these big, bright, hopeful eyes
and smiled as she said
"ok yeah I'm ganna make it worse.
Imagine that Vic came behind you and hugged you"
I smiled and felt tears welling up again
"don't do this to me, that's abusive"
and we laughed and hugged again.
-but I still wonder
we had just finished setting up
for the steel drums festival
but you insisted that you needed to practice
so you took your pan
and me
into a stairwell so you could hear your self.
I remember watching you concentrate
letting the music penetrate your bones
you would even close your eyes occasionally
and I smiled.
how do you always make something so simple
so beautiful.
-small memories of you
your fingers grazed my hand
as I was leaving
and I turned around to see you
nearly asleep in bed
lazily grabbing for my hand
as you squinted through drowsy eyes.
I took a second to note how adorable you looked
nearly drowning in thick blankets
a vague pillow print on the side of your face
and ruffled hair to match.
I was snapped out of my thoughts
when you whispered something,
but I didn't hear it.
I crouched down so my face was next to yours
and held your hand
" what was it?" I asked.
you opened your eyes a little bit more
giving me a glimpse of their beautiful hazel hue
"stay," you whispered
"just for a little while?"
I felt my eyes water
as I smiled and held your hands tighter
"just until you fall asleep"
-and I still dream of you
BLUE by Troye Sivan
SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK by Joji
Song for the Sleepless by Ollie MN
