Lost and Fallen (Memories #1)

Chapter 1

They say that we have a million dreams in just a single sleep but only few can be remembered.

"Do you like my gift?" I can hear a soft voice of a women but I cant see anything. All are purely white and only voices can be hear.

"Kuya will protect you baby, so dont be afraid and sleep tight. Okay?" Another voice again but this time its a voice of man. I can hear the gentleness in his voice.

"Daddy will make a milk for my only princess." Another voice from a man. So sweet.

Evething feels surreal. Like I'm use to this scenario.

"You've got a beautiful name." My heart is beating so loud.

"Can I have this dance?" A sweet voice of a man.

All voices are crampled together and I dont understand any single words. Everything is a mess. It only hurt my head.

I woke up again with a heavy breathing and body showered by sweat. But unlike my past days here. This is the first time that I clearly remember my dream. I tried my best to stop myself from crying. Pigil hininga kong pinipigilan kumawala ang hikbi.

Mas importante sa akin ang hindi makalimutan kung ano man ang napanaginipan ko because thats the only way for me to find my true self.

Who are they? Are they my family?

I don't have any idea about my true identity or even what happened to me that made me lost my memory. I just woke up in a white room with nay Luming and her family. I can't speak that time and I know that I become a burden to them so I give my all to at least recover and help myself.

Nay Luming and tay Berto told me that they saw me wounded, unconscious and nearly in death in a street somewhere in Manila so they brought me to a hospital. Kinupkop muna nila ako habang hindi ko pa nakikita ang tunay kong pamilya.

I tried to sleep again hoping that I'll have my dream again about my past. Pero ilang minuto na ang lumipas at ilang beses na kong papalit palit ng posisyon pero di parin ako makatulog. Maybe its not the right time to remember.

Pinakawalan ko ang malalim na paghinga ng makitang alas singko na ng umaga. I can already hear the noises from outside. Inayos ko muna ang sarili ko bago lumabas ng kwarto.

Nay Luming's house is made up of bamboo. Kawayan ang dingding pero semento naman ang sahig. Maliit lang ang bahay pero malinis. There are three rooms, isa para kina tay Berto at Nay Luming, one room for me and the other room is for Amira, their one and only daughter.

They got a simple life here.

Walang tao sa sala at sarado pa ang pintuan ng kwarto ni Amira. Siguro tulog pa ito, kung sa bagay alas singko pa lang naman.

Naabutan ko naman si Nay Luming na nagdidilig ng halaman habang nagsisibak naman ng kahoy si Tay Berto.

Dahan dahan akong umupo sa lamesa dito sa labas ng bahay kung saan nakita ko pa ang dalawang tasa ng kape na nangangahalati na.

"Kamusta ang lakad niyo kahapon?" Tanong ni tay Berto habang sumisimsim ng kape niya. I didn't notice that he is already done chopping the woods.

Images of yesterday and the feeling of embarassment flash on my mind even if how much I tried to forget about it. Iyon ang mga rason kung bakit di ako makatulog kagabi. Mga hating gabi na ata ng makatulog ako.

Nakakatawa lang na di ko malimutan ang tagpong yon at ang dali lang sakin na alalahanin yon samantalang hirap na hirap akong maalala ang nakaraan ko.

One time I push myself so hard just to remember a single thing to have a lead of who I truelly am but it makes my head ache so much. I screamed because of pain to the point na isinugod ako sa ospital nila nay at tay. Sabi ng doktor huwag ko daw munang pilitin maka alala kasi kusa naman daw babalik ang mga ito.