No lying. No jokes. Straight up, it bites.
It kills.
It burns.
It stings.
To not have Hayes text or call me, saying when he's back in North Carolina.
Although I hear his twitter was hacked and now he unfollwed me and followed Claire, along with Kia and Leena.
That's cute.
You know, I never thought I'd have to discover his account isn't in control by him, via Instagram.
no texts, calls, nada.
Nothing.
Way to make my heart beat faster than the beat of a drum, when I have thousands of comments and DMS asking if it was true his account was hacked.
Way to scare me to the bone.
You know, don't bother texting your girlfriend.
Don't bother.
I'm not worth it right?
Not deserving enough to have Hayes Grier?
Right?
Right.
You selfish little pig, don't I mean anythingto you?
You can crush my heart, rip my self esteem into shreds, and might as well beat me black and blue, but I'll still love you.
Still.
because I am weak.
Selfless.
Stupid and blinded by love.
But
Since you aren't trying, I'm not trying.
Since you don't care, I don't care.
But I know
Ican't.
I can't let go of the only thing keeping me alive.
The only person giving me a reason to breathe.
But its time to let go, because "I'm only dragging Hayes down."
He doesn't need me. I'm not worthy.
He's going to live large and have it all, but for me?
Might as well leave him before he leaves me.
Right?
This is what love is allabout?
Ripping each other's heart out without a single ounce of regret.
Or being so desperate without the other half?
Feeling incomplete and wandering how in the heck do I find my way out of this trap called life?
Great.
Just fabulous.
Honestly, every ounce of my body urges me to send him a "I miss you" text, but its funny how every ounce of my body overpowers that thought.
You don't try
I don'ttry.
Simple as that, right?
I'm not as oblivious as I was before, right?
I'm not as clueless and naive.
But a part of me, misses him
Misses the warmth and gentle touch of his comforting hugs
His electrifying kisses that sparked my day
Him.
Simply him
But I'm a distant memory right? I never knew you could completely block somebody out in 5 days time
I never knew somebody could mistake you as a bare wall.
He doesn't notice me.
Pretty soon I'll vaporize into thin air, and be gone.
I feel a sharp pain as I awaken in the morning with Veronica slapping me.
"I never told my aunt I slept over!!!" she panicked
I fuzzily remembered the previous night, and the therapy session, and my inner thoughts of Hayes.
"It's okay maybe my parents called." I mention in hopes of calming her.
"Mom!" I shout, "did you call her aunt saying she slept over?"
"Yes!" she yells back
"Problem solved!" I smile
"My mom can drop you off at home if you wanna go." I speak
She nods, "yeah you have tutoring today anyways."
Within ten minutes, Veronica is sweetly returned to her doorstep, like a present left under a tree.
**********
Truthfully speaking, I don't have a class today.
Paya got sick and tomorrow she'll be back hopefully.
Thoughts cloud my mind, telling me Hayes should've been back yesterday if he was telling the truth.
My body freezes and stops dead in my tracks.
"Wait longer," a raspy voice mutters
A couple more days won't hurt, right?
He hasn't texted me anyways, so who gets hurt here?
Two more days, I'll break up with him I swear.
"That's funny," a voice giggles, "you think you don't need him!"
I need him
I probably can't last.
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