Anxiety • part 2

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"Saaaam" Ashton started saying and I grunted and tried to pull the covers over my head again but he was making sure I couldn't. I knew we didn't have to be anywhere before 5pm so no way I'm waking up. "Oh c'mon Sam, wake up. It's important." He said with a sigh and I let out another grunt but slowly opened my eyes and first looked at my phone to see how late it is.

"It's a minute before 7 so you better have a damn good reason to wake me up." I said and he looked at me with a grin on his face while he looked at his phone until it turned 7am.

"3 years ago at this second I kissed you for the first time." He said and I looked at him confused. "Two years ago I kissed you at this second too so I didn't want to break the habit." He said and I couldn't help but smile before he kissed me softly. "Okay, now you can go back to sleep."

"You are so adorable Ashton but please don't do that again because it will take me an hour to fall asleep now." I said with a chuckle and he looked so guilty but he kissed my forehead before pulling me to his chest and playing with my hair softly. "This isn't going to help."

"Shh, talking won't help either." He said and I laughed softly and wrapped my arm around his waist. I closed my eyes but I knew I would just lie awake for a while. He started singing softly and the smile on my face grew before moving so I could look at him. "You're never going to fall asleep like that. Just let me sing to you and play with your hair, that always works."

"That works when we're going to be and I'm exhausted. So how about we just cuddle for an hour and then get ready and go some place." I said as I looked at him and I felt wide awake even though I wanted nothing more than to just sleep again a few minutes ago. "Don't feel guilty."

"I've woken you up at crazy hours a few times already and you always fell asleep again quickly." He said worried and I laughed softly.

"No I didn't, I closed my eyes and slowed my breathing until I was sure that you were asleep." I said and he looked at me as if he had just discovered my biggest secret.

"Anything else you ever faked just to make me feel less guilty?" He asked all serious before both our phones started buzzing. I looked quickly and it was the guys spamming the groupchat for New Year.

"Let's not go down that road." I replied with a laugh when I looked back at him and he looked at me confused but he badly wanted to know the actual answer.

"What else?" He asked all serious and I shook my head

"No I'm not telling you." I said determined not to let him win but he didn't look like he was about to give up.

"Did you ever fake anything during sex?" He asked slightly worried and I just laughed because that was his first question.

"Just once because you were so tired." I replied and he looked so offended by that. "That's a big compliment because I used to fake it very often before you. Don't take that as something bad."

"So what else? Just tell me."

"Laughing with some of your super lame jokes is the one I do the most often. Most of your jokes are funny but sometimes they are so stupid." I said and he laughed softly. "What's something you have lied about?"

"Your cooking skills. Definitely. It still sucks and you should really take up some cooking classes." He said straight away and I laughed before looking at him again. "I can't even say something sex related because it's freaking amazing for me every time."

"Atleast someone enjoys it every time." I said jokingly and he got a grin on his face while he pushed me on my back and hovered above me.

"So you don't enjoy it every time?" He asked, his voice low and he placed soft kisses on shoulder.