I never thought an anxiety attack could be the best thing to happen to me.
Do not read without reading part 1 first, you won't understand half of it if you do.
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SamanthaE: if you told 12 year old me that I would be doing a headlining, sold out tour soon or that I'm doing my 13th show tonight out of 19 tonight opening for Julia Michaels, she'd laugh and tell you to stop joking. What once was a dream became reality and I'm thankfull to everyone who helped me get here. Thank you mom for sending me this picture today 😊 brought back a lot of good memories...
275.008 likes EllenEvans: so proud of you honey and just had to send it to you when I found it! JackieEvans: who even is that dude in the background? SamanthaE: @JackieEvans I got absolutely no clue AshtonIrwin: you were so cute AshtonIrwin: you still are so cute AshtonIrwin: I love you AshtonIrwin: please notice me AshtonIrwin: I'm your biggest fan AshtonIrwin: I'm your number 1 fan and I will fight anyone who tells me differently AshtonIrwin: please notice me samantha, I love you UpdatesofAshtonIrwin: @ashtonirwin are you okay? SamanthaE: @ashtonirwin stop being so needy AshtonIrwin: @samanthae OMG YOU REPLIED TO ME THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU SamanthaE: @ashtonirwin you are so weird AshtonIrwin: @samanthae OMG YOU REPLIED AGAIN AND NOW I THINK IM DEAD SamGlobal: Ashton acting like one of us might be the best thing ever SamanthaE: @SamGlobal he's annoying SamGlobal: @samanthae OMG YOU REPLIED TO ME SamGlobal: @samanthae shit now I did it too JackieClifford: @ashtonirwin for a second I thought you were an actual fan AshtonIrwin: @JackieClifford O M G SAMS LITTLE SISTER REPLIED TO ME TOO SamanthaE: @ashtonirwin is this payback for what I did on twitter last week? AshtonIrwin: @SamanthaE OMG THAT HOT CHICK FROM TWITTER JUST REPLIED TO ME AND I CANT BELIEVE SHE REMEMBERED ME SamanthaE: @AshtonIrwin taking that as a yes and please reply my text AshtonIrwin: @SamanthaE OMG SAMANTHA EVANS HAS MY PHONE NUMBER AND JUST TEXTED ME UpdatesofSamEvans: this picture is so adorable omg 5secsofeline: that guitar in the background looks awesome
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"Just 6 more after this." I said with a soft sigh as we all sat backstage while Julia was doing soundcheck and Q&A. "But hey, then we're going to Europe and we have 20 more on the list."
"And the fucking sold out O2." Yazz replied and we all laughed softly. It was all still hard to believe and Sierra and I almost chickened out because it got sold out. But I've been on the road with Julia for 20 days now and I just can't wait until we will go to Europe for more.
But every day I freaked out and I celebrated every morning I woke up and realised I survived another 24 hours pregnant. But today that fear has faded.
14 weeks, 3 months done, 6 more to go.
I had a check up in the hospital in Ohio this morning and it's a text book pregnancy, except the rather fast growing baby bump that I will never be able to hide until after tour at this speed. My energy is up again, I'm rarely throwing up and I feel happier. It was a weight falling off our shoulders that we got through the first trimester. I could see that Ashton was more relaxed now too.
