Anxiety • part 2

57 • irwin

WARNING

WARNING

WARNING

DONT READ PAST THIS

ASHTON POV WILL BE IN CURSIVE AND HAS [A]

SAM POV WILL BE NORMAL AND HAS [S]

BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO READ THE FIRST
PART  IN BOTH POVS AT THE SAME TIME

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— switching POVs: Ashton / Sam —

[s] I was standing infront of the mirror, I had fixed my hair ten times by now and readjusted my necklace about 100 times. My hands were shaking and my heart was racing. I was nervous but excited, although the nerves were taking over right now. My eyes trailed down while I looked in the mirror and stopped moving when they landed on strawberry. I smiled softly and placed my hand ontop of her.

[a] For the sixth time, I readjusted my tie. I made sure my hair was laying the way she likes it so much and I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I was so excited but I had to admit I was a little nervous too. I turned away from the mirror when the door opened, smiling when my mom walked in. "Are you ready?" She asked me and I nodded. I took the jacket from the chair by the window and put it on, looking in the mirror one last time before turning towards her. I stopped infront of her and she adjusted my tie once more, a broad smile on her face while she looked at me. "You look amazing"

[s] "Ashton is ready, so just a little longer." My mom said when she walked into the room. I nodded softly and I turned away from the mirror and made my way to the window. It looked out on the garden. The tables were set for later but it was still empty. Tonight it would be filled with our closest friends and family, the people we love the most. Looking outside at that garden made me feel a little calmer. I haven't seen him for a few days, our phones takes away from us so we couldn't call or text. But we got to read each other's letters this morning, he wrote about the day we first met, about the way he would occasionally look over during their show to see if I was okay. How he fell for me instantly. I wrote about the day I realised I was all in, the day I realised I was going to break my own rules. It took me longer to realise that because I had more rules to break than him.

[a] I walked down the stairs with my mom right behind me. The biggest smile was on my face and I left my nerves in the dressing room. When we reached the door of the chapel, I let my mom go back in first. Waiting until it was my turn to walk out and see all my friends and family. I had missed seeing Sam's face, feeling her body against mine when we hug or when she forces me to hold her during the night. I miss talking to her and hearing her sing while she cooks, because she has finally learnt how to cook. I miss being able to feel strawberry's kicks and talk to her too. I miss how big Sam's smile was when I was singing to strawberry. But in a few minutes, I would see her again and make her mine for the rest of our lifes. When the doors opened after what seemed like forever, I walked down the aisle, I walked to the front of the chapel where my best man was waiting. I looked at every member of our families while I walked there. I got a big smile from everyone and when I reached my mom, Lauren and Harry, I smiled even wider. When I reached my spot, I had Calum to my side and my family right infront of me. But when my eyes landed on the closed door that I just walked through, I reached a new high in nervousness. My hands started sweating and I barely could stand still, I am going to marry the love of my life.