Underwater (kiribaku/bakushima)

Drowning

Kirishima's POV:

My bare feet made patting noises as I trailed upstairs. I didn't really feel anything in that moment. No regret, no worry. Not even fear.

I closed the door behind me, not bothering to lock it. It'll be easier for whoever needs to take me away after, I guess.

Dad is asleep. He drank a lot and passed out. It's okay. He couldn't be mad at me either.

My mind drifted to Bakugou. I should leave him more than what I wrote. But I figured it didn't matter anyway.

Nothing mattered.

There is zero consequences this time.

Everything I do, everything I ever did, will just be distant memories. I won't exist.

I won't get in anyone's way anymore.

I wondered if Bakugou would blame himself.
But then again, I'm not sure what's real anymore.

But it's fine.

I'm okay.

I looked down at the now full bathtub. My biggest nightmare but the only thing with a sense of familiarity. It makes me feel a sick feeling, but it's also a good one. One I deserve.

I blocked out the biting of my wrists. I cut them bad this time. It was going to be the last time, so I wanted to make it count.
I was wearing a baggy white t-shirt and boxers.
I usually avoid short sleeves, but it'll be easier for people to figure out what happened. To know it wasn't an accident.

My feet were getting wet. There was water on the floor now. I stayed perfectly still, staring downwards. The water was spilling out a little.

I had made a full circle.

Right back at where I was in the beginning.

I dipped my foot into the water.

It was kinda cold.

But, for the last time...

I'll go underwater.

Bakugou's POV:

"Eijirou!" I screamed for what felt like the millionth time. I knew he couldn't hear me.
I had to try.

My feet beat against the ground as I ran. Every land of my foot sending a wave throughout my entire body. I was going as fast as I possibly could, but I felt like I couldn't be going any slower.

"Eijirou!" Screaming out his name again, hoping with every part of my body, that he's here. He's still with me. He hasn't gone yet.

He couldn't have.

I need him here, damnit!

The entire time I said I wasn't stupid! I said I knew what was going on. But I pushed away all the fucking signs and now-
Now-!

Tears sprung to my eyes and I wiped them away furiously. I picked up my pace, even though I was low on energy and my entire body was throbbing.

I turned a corner too quickly and fell against the ground, hitting myself hard. I waisted no time getting myself back up and retiring to the speed I was running at.

Until someone grabbed my arm.

"What the fuck?! Let go!" I screamed into his face, trying desperately to twist my arm out of his grip. Every second I waste, is another second Kirishima is-
"Let go!" I screamed again.

"Where are you going?" Ryan's voice echoed through my ears, drilling hard into my head.
I need to get to Kirishima.

My head dropped, not knowing how to make Ryan let me go.
Looking up at him with tear-filled eyes, I could only manage to say one word.
"Kirishima..!"